Texas, Mexico, and the Experience at Chamizal National Memorial

I was hesitant to go in the first place. Chamizal National Memorial could be one more National Park site to check off my list, and it pretty much was in route, but it would require a slight detour right into the heart of El Paso, Texas.

On a definitive burst of whimsy, I decided I’d do it. I would go to Chamizal. First I decided to stock up on a few food supplies at an El Paso Walmart. In the parking lot, just as I was about to turn the car on, a man came tapping on my window. He motioned me to roll down my window. Nuh uh, not doing it, I spoke in my mind. It sounds like a great way to be mugged. I didn’t move and kept my composure. He held a receipt up to the window. “Return for me, this. I have receipt.” His English was broken. He proceeded to showcase a pair of shoes. Does this even require an explanation? There was no need for me to return an item for him. Something smelled fishy in the hot Texas air.

Being back in Southern Texas brought back poignant sensations. I was accustomed to this type of environment and behavior. I had lived in Houston, Texas for a year. It was my first year out of college. When I stop to remember this time, it seems like some vague dream, and I often do have dreams about Houston drawn from the catacombs of my memory.  But I had lost acquaintance with the true Southern Texas vibes until I arrived here in El Paso. It was here in was assured will all certainty that my experiences in Houston were but a breath away. Cities of Southern Texas have their own unique identity, feeling like their own entity- a foreign place to the rest of the United States.

I was fortunate to live in a nice part of Houston, although in a humble apartment tucked in between towers of luxury. But I worked south of the city in the rundown poverty stricken area in which I served in a charter high school funded in part by the Federal government as a school of choice but also a school to send juveniles who were kicked out of public school and  were on probation. A number of students were in gangs, working for the Mexican drug cartels, and on judicial trial.

Among this population I learned where some immigrants bought pirated social security cards, how they worked around the legal immigration system,  and how they took advantage of the welfare system. It was a very rough environment. It was gritty, but I loved it. Things went downhill, however, when both our principals resigned and things became dangerous. I decided to pack my bags, leave, and head back to the Bluegrass. But now 5 years later, I was getting reacquainted with Texas.

It was midday and the southern Texas sun was bright and hot. My memory has everything painted over in a pale brown, with a bit of desert dust and barb wire. Businesses I’d seen had steal bars over the windows. Signs advertised Mexican auto insurance and money transfers. I had found myself on Highway 85, the CanAm Highway.

When the road was clear and afforded me the opportunity, I looked out the window to my right at the houses so tightly packed, square and simple, made of cinderblocks flowing up and down the hills. It reminded me a lot of the poorer parts of Mexico, like on the outskirts of Mexico City in the Estado de Mexico. Then I took a double take. No Way! This was Mexico right to my left. Nearly an arms reach away was the border fence. I had mistook it for a common highway barrier, but this was it. There was a ravine in between the fence and these houses. It was the Rio Grande River! I knew I was getting close to Mexico. I could sense it. I didn’t know I was this close.

These houses literally had their front windows pointing into the United States. They could look upon the modern developing city of El Paso, upon its malls, museums, and universities, but for many this place would be unreachable. Some would have to look at it, but could never go. It would be out their window, perhaps for their whole life, so close but never attainable. Looking at it day after day, stuck in a neighborhood of narrow dirty streets and cinder block houses, is just profound to think about. I can’t even begin to imagine the desire and curiosity that builds up in these people to want to see what is on the other side so close, yet in so many cases, forbidden.  

Within moments I was pulling off the highway into Chamizal National Memorial. I knew little about this place, but I was here to learn, perhaps this could further my perspective which was already beginning to grow. I have for a long time, taken a great interest in Mexico. Although my allegiance is pledged to the United States, I also have a deep admiration for Mexico. I completed some of my undergraduate education in Mexico City as an international student. I spent some of my most formative years there and really felt like I came of age while living in Mexico. It is there where I developed my own personal independence and sense of self. I have visited Mexico many summers, applied for many jobs there and even for a visa to work and live more permanently in Mexico. I’ve explored much of central Mexico, made many friend there, and identified with the culture and people as I lived there. I knew this memorial would speak to the relationship between Mexico and the U.S., and now I had arrived.

DSC09641I was greeted with a colorful mural depicting important moments in Mexican-American history and aspects of Mexican culture.  Upon opening the door I was welcomed in Spanish by a National Park Service employee. It was an elderly Latina lady with grey hair, a friendly smile,  and an aura of a traditional abuelita. She didn’t reveal that she spoke English, so we just continued in Spanish. I explained this was my first time visiting the memorial. She got up from here chair, enthused yet composed, and explained that there was a museum and film. She guided me over to a rack of brochures where she proceeded to fill my hands with brochures of other National Park units in Texas and neighboring New Mexico. She was funny. I liked her. She authoritatively but sweetly was telling me what I needed to see and what I needed to do. She was a culmination of Mexican hospitality and West Texas friendliness. I thanked her and proceeded to take in the museum. I was fascinated.

I learned through the museum, that this place commemorates the peaceful agreement between Mexico and the U.S. over a land dispute. Two Mexican presidents and two U.S. presidents, JFK and Lyndon B. Johnson, created a peaceful agreement.The issue had been that the Rio Grande river marked the boundary between the two countries, but there was an island on the river after the course of the river changed routes. It was long disputed whom it belonged to. Conclusively the route of the river was solidified in a canal and Mexico gave up its claim of Chamizal. People had to give up their land and that was sad, but overall the museum had a very positive spin on the whole Chamizal agreement

“The Chamizal is a very small tract of land. But the principle is a very great one. Let a troubled world take note that here, on this border, between the United States and Mexico, two free nations, unafraid, have resolved their differences with honor, with dignity, and with justice to the people of both nations.” – President Lyndon B. Johnson, September 25, 1964

DSC09645I left the museum to check out the small city park out back. There was a group of students perhaps on a field trip. I sought the post marking the prior land border between the two nations. I took a picture of it and then fixed my eyes on my surroundings. There was a bridge encased in fencing. A sign stuck up in the center of it declaring “Bienvenidos a Mexico.” I watched the vehicles flow and back up at the border. Then i noticed the business men walking across the border with their briefcases, returning home from a day in the office in another nation. Then I noticed others so informally coming across the bridge. Was is this easy? My curiosity was sparked. This was supposed to be an all-American National Park road trip, but maybe a side trip to Mexico could add a little spice to the slice. I had to go back in the museum and inquire. I found my little abuelita.

“I noticed people walking across the border, is it really that easy?” I asked

“Oh yes, you just need a passport.”

“What is on the other side?”

“Mexico,” she replied Of course I knew this. I hope abuelita wasn’t trying to be sarcastic with me.

“I know that, but is there a park or something on the other side.”

“Oh, si, hay un parque Chamizal de Mexico y tambien el museo Chamizal Mexicano.”

A Mexican Chamizal museum? I was intrigued. I wondered how Mexico’s museum would portray the whole Chamizal land dispute and agreement. Would they paint it in the same positive light as the U.S., or would it have a more bitter aftertaste after the land loss. I wanted to know and I also wanted a good excuse to cross the bridge to Ciudad Juarez, the city often deemed as one of Mexico’s roughest and most dangerous.

“Is it safe for someone like me?” i didn’t specify exactly what I was referring to, but I thought it obvious: tall, white and gringo… especially in this moment. I was dressed and prepared for my all-American road trip, not a stroll through the streets of Ciudad Juarez. I know how to blend into my environment, but this was going to be tricky given my circumstances.

“In this time of day, you’ll be fine,” Abuelita informed. “You should go, and then come back and tell me what you think.”

She was the final push. I was gonna do it.

I went back to my car, located my passport, and utilized some methods I learned when i used to explore the streets of Mexico City. I hid some cash in my shoes along with a photocopy of my passport. I emptied my wallet to the bare essentials. I strapped my camera string to by belt loop and let it hang on the inside of my pants. I changed from a sleeveless shirt and shorts to a t-shirt and jeans. I took all my typical safety measures. I was excited. Moments ago I had been beginning to question if I had lost my sense of adventure. Certainly not! This was proving it. Curiosity and daring ambition was driving me, and I took off on my journey to Mexico on foot.

This visit to Mexico would be unlike any other I’ve ever had before. It would be eye-opening and informative. In Mexico City they always say never go to the border because it’s really dangerous there. Why did they always say this? Was there validity to it? I would certainly find out.

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A Nightmare at White Sands

I made it past the Border Patrol checkpoints, through the various safety corridors, past the federal prisons with signs warning me not to stop nor pick up any hitchhikers, across the plains, past the tornado, through a torrential rainstorm, and finally I was in the mountains. On the other side I would arrive at White Sands National Monument.

My first perception of New Mexico was not the most welcoming. Danger and warnings seemed to be all around and on every highway and byway. This state would redeem itself later, showing me its true enchantment.  But right now, after a long day’s journey, I was just hoping for a relaxing evening camping out under the stars amidst white sand dunes.

Little did I know my night would not be relaxing nor star filled. I had my suspicions of this though. A storm had lingered ahead of me most of the day, preventing me from fully buying into the prospect of a beautiful night. Once I had passed over the mountains by Las Cruces, I had outpaced the storm. It was behind me. I knew mountains create weather, and weather on one side of a mountain can be entirely different than the weather on the other.

Maybe, by crossing the mountain, the storm would truly stay behind me. I had some unrooted hope. I rolled into the visitor center at White Sand National Monument and wasted no time in getting inside and securing a backpacking permit. It had been a race, me against the clock, all day to get here and secure a permit. When I had it in my hand it was a sure sign of relief.

The young lady, who issued the permit to me in the visitor center, went over a few basic rules. She told me that once I drove into the park, I would not be coming out until the next day. I would have to commit to camp all night, because the park road is gated and locked at night.

I inquired “What am I supposed to do if it starts to lightning.” She replied, commenting how she was aware of a pending storm, and assured me I could sleep in my car if lightning became an issue.

Prior to setting out on this trip, I read an account, from a fellow adventure blogger, Tricia, from Road Trip the World. In her piece “An Amazing (And Absolutely Terrifying) Night Backpacking White Sands,” She shares the true life story of her family encountering a lightning storm while trying to camp out in White Sands and racing back to their car only to get lost and becoming extremely vulnerable to the weather. It was a great read, and seemed like such a crazy and unlikely occurrence. That would never happen to me, right? I could never have imagined that the words I read in their blog would jump right off the world wide web, manifest themselves again here in New Mexico, and formulate the same story with me as the new protagonist. What was this? Some sort of Disney reboot. I would have begged to just stick with the original classic. This new story added in some details I could have done without.

So here’s how this new rendition begins: I was in the park. It was astounding. The sand, formed from gypsum, is truly white, and it gives the appearance of snow. If I staged my photos correctly- threw on a serious coat and hat- I could have fooled you into thinking I was in some sort of arctic tundra. But it was rather warm. I was in shorts and a sleeveless shirt. The drive into the park, was, for a lack of better terms, magical. I think somewhere beneath my car was a road, but white sand had blown, fallen,  and leisurely hung out all over the road, giving the perception that I was off road somewhere braving the snow covered landscape.

I parked my car, in the designated lot for backpacking campers. There were a few other vehicles, maybe five at the max. Daylight was slipping away, so I wanted to get packed and out on the dunes. Two miles, I believe is the distance I needed to travel, to where I was assigned a “campsite.” The only way to identify a campsite would be by a metal stick stuck in the ground with a number affixed to it. As I was packing my backpack with everything I’d need for the night, I overheard a pitiful, yet entertaining, conversation between some fresh college graduates who just met. There were two boys and two girls.

“We just graduated,” The college frat boy type spoke as he was gathering things from his Jeep along with his buddy.

“No way! Oh my gosh, we did to!” the tall slender girl flirtatiously twirled her fingers through her hair, aside her female companion.

“You girls are hot. What are you doing out here alone?”

“Oh, we are just celebrating graduation and are going to go backpacking”

“We’re gonna get drunk.” He pulled a cooler from the Jeep. “Come by our camp for some drinks.”

“Oh my gosh, like, yes!

I had to pause, was this conversation really happening? I did not have the most conventional college experience. I wasn’t accustomed to this sort of exchange. Is this how the world works? Part of me internally was saying please, just stop and go home, and the other part was entertained and begging, tell me more. And they did.

“We have weed,” one boy continued “Come smoke some weed with us at our camp.”

“For sure,” the girls accepted.

Whoa! Overload. Here’s what was spinning through my mind. First off, this conversation was so easy and so blatantly straight-forward. If I were to be flirtatious, which is not much in my character, I would be more clever and cunning about it. “You’re hot”? Really? We can do better. Secondly, going out on the sand dunes, in God’s beautiful nature to get drunk, to me, seems like an abomination. I go out in the wild to seek beauty, to savor the vistas, to listen to the subtle sounds, to commune with my Creator. I think John Muir and dear Teddy Roosevelt would be rolling in their graves to hear this horrendous conversation. Thirdly, you are going to smoke weed on federal property? That only seems like a good idea if you want to spend some time in prison. Hearing the way these guys and girls responded to each other, only proved that they deserved each other. And in conclusion, although their night may be filled with “experiences” for sure, they would miss the true value of the solitude and inspiration to be found in such a beautiful place.

But whatever, Tally Ho! Onward I went into the sandscape. I, now a proven champion of beating the clock, decided I could save some time by punching in the GPS coordinates to my “site” Instead of following the trail, which was a series of stakes in the group. The GPS device would take me a more direct route. I thought this was a good plan. It was mistake number 1.

The story just goes downhill from here, but in all due credit, White Sands National Monument is  beautiful. The smooth white sandy expanse contrasts the dark blue and purples of the mountains in the distance creating a view of prime artistry.

I arrived at my site, just as the sun turned  in for the night. You’ve heard of a “hole-in-the-wall,” well this was nothing more than a stick-in-the-sand. I set up my tent took off my boots, crawled into my tent, laid my head down, and then…

“BOOM!” a thunderous cry ran free in the distance and light flashed across the sky. I propped myself up to further examine the sky. The storm was on descending from the mountains. It was on its way.  My initial reaction was to ignore it, but five minutes later I decided I needed to do something. I don’t know if this has any sliver of intellect or potential at all, but I was considering how my tent and I were the only things sticking up on this white expanse. We were undoubtedly the one and only lightning target. I know lightning is prone to strike the tallest object and is partial to metal. So I took my trekking pole, extended it, walked a few feet away, and erected my personal lightning rod. Back in my tent I went. The wind started to pick up, and the sides of my tent nervously flapped. The storm inched its way forward becoming more boisterous.

Should I stay or should I go, my mind when back and forth and back and forth, ping-ponging from one side to another, until I settled, on I gotta make it back to the car. I quickly packed up and started on my way. But which way? It was dark now, and I had become disoriented. Everything out here looked the same. I didn’t know which way to go. I started, and about ten minutes in, I realized I had no idea where I was headed. For my own psychological well-being, if this storm was going to be upon me, I figured I’d rather be inside my tent than standing up on the sand completely exposed. I made my way back to my tent and set up my tent once again. I was going to be stubborn. I was going to stay. But my stubbornness only lasted for about another ten minutes, until doubt crept back in.

Then I attuned my ears to the sounds of some other campers somewhere in the distance. I couldn’t see them, but I could hear them laughing and being all giddy-like. I entertained, for a while, the idea that if there was really danger I would wait until that party packed up and started heading back to the cars. But the storm grew closer and closer and these people seemed so unfazed. Then the responsible and reasonable me considered that I was  waiting to take lead from people who were probably drunk and high. I need to take matters into my own hands. Better safe than dead, I concluded. I packed up my tent once again and headed out. Mistake number 2 was that I failed to make a waypoint on my GPS when I started my journey from the parking lot. I would have to follow the system of numbered stakes back. It would take longer. I went from one number to another, and they didn’t match up. How did I go from 2 to 11 and then from 11 to 5. I was not following the sequence. My feet were racing and stumbling over themselves in the soft sand. It was uncomfortable, I was struggling and far from being collected or stoic, but I was determined to get back to my car before the lightning reached the area.

About twenty minutes later I thought I had found my way, until I read the number. I was back at my site. The realization that I just walked in a circle hit me in a very unsettling way. It was like the sandscape was playing tricks on me and mocking me. I felt like I was in one of those terrible nightmares, where you realize you are dreaming, but no matter how hard you try you just can’t wake up and snap out of it. Panic really began to set it. I was about ready to throw it all on the ground, lay down, bury my face in the sand, and face my horrible fate of being struck and fried by lightning, but I don’t give up that easily.

Just when so much sand collected in my shoes, that it forced my feet out of my boots and I stumbled around barefoot, I reached what seemed to be the pearly gates of the roads paved with gold. It was simply the parking lot, ever so comforting and reliving.

BOOM! Light flashed in the darkness.

The storm was very near. I was very glad I made the decision to come back to my car.

Never in my adult life have I camped in my car. It was against my rules. I would always take the time to set up a tent and enjoy the night air and stretch out my legs. I would break my rules tonight. I am tall, my car was compact. I was crutched up. I cracked the windows, but it was stuffy. This was not how it was supposed to be. Here I was feeling pitiful. My White Sands camping experience was ruined. This was supposed to be a trip of peace and rejuvenation. That same morning I had locked my keys in the car, and now I had just escaped a lightning storm and was crunched up in a compact car in the blustery sand plains of New Mexico.

Then…

Bright lights shown in my window. Someone had their vehicle high beams pointed at me. It was a law enforcement park ranger. He informed me I was not allowed to camp in my car. I told him I came back because of the storm, and in the visitor center, I was told I could do so. He asked for my license, permit, and fee receipt. Wait? What? Receipt? I didn’t have a receipt. I didn’t pay anything for my permit. Was I supposed to? I was.

I was trying to figure out how could I possibly be at fault. Shouldn’t the permit issuers have collected my fee?

The officer wrote me a ticket for $150. “Pay your $3 camping fee on the way out in the morning, or you will be stuck with this fine.

I explained to him how I would never intentionally break a rule in a National Park, and I explained how I actually volunteer with the National Park Service in the Big South Fork. He was friendly and understanding, but still stern. He pulled out a piece of paper, which I had never previously been presented with, that stated “no sleeping in vehicles.” After giving me the run around I asked: “Well where am I supposed to sleep tonight?”

“You can just sleep in your car,” he replied.

Feeling like a convicted criminal, I slept in my car. I felt like I had betrayed my beloved National Park Service. My pride had taken a fall. I always felt like I was a part of the NPS now I felt like a foe. And I was the one seeking peace and solitude. It’s not like I was hooking up on the sandscape with booze and marijuana. I felt like the law enforcement officer painted me as someone I wasn’t.

Feeling pitiful and exhausted, I fell asleep.

 

I woke up in the middle of the night to the car rocking back and forth from the wind. I pushed myself up to look out the window. I couldn’t see anything. The storm indeed was here, and it had picked up the sand and violently tossed it about in a complete white out.

Well, this was the safest I was going to get. I laid back down. I may have broken rules, my night might have been a messy escape from danger, but I felt I had made the right decision. The turmoil outside put my mind at ease for the decisions I had made, and I went to sleep again to the sound of the roaring wind.

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3 Rattlesnakes and a Frenchman

Although I was running short on time, my adventure in Chiricahua National Monument was not complete. I really wanted to hike to the top of Sugarloaf Mountain. The only competing circumstance was that I had a four-hour drive ahead of me to White Sands National Monument, and I needed to get there before 6pm to secure a camping permit. It was already noon. I would save time, I concluded,  by running the trail to the top of the mountain. After all, it was only a 1.9 miles hike round trip.

I pulled into the parking area. I was already up in the mountains, but this cylinder-like peak jutted up from the mountain as its own entity. I  had to see the view from atop. I grabbed my backpack and hydration pack, made sure I had my car keys, and was off. I started running up the narrow path which hugged the mountainside and spiraled DSC09539around the peak. There was one part with a narrow tunnel carved or blasted out by the Civilian Conservation Corps and another section where the rock and trail became smooth and bright white, appearing almost as if it was a part of a bobsled track. Apart from that, the rest of the trail was of typical rock and dust, with prickly plants all around and the summer sun in full exposure. Yes, it was strenuous, DSC09552going uphill the entire length of the trail, but it wouldn’t be long. I was pushing myself, taking on my machine mentality in which I concentrate on keeping mechanical movements and consistent speed, imagining I am nothing but a machine operating in a programmable mode. I was finally picking up speed and getting past my mechanical groove into a free-spirited free run until…..

“Tststststsssss” ( That’s how I spell the sound a rattlesnake makes). That noise was coming from behind me.

I ran right over a rattlesnake. My heart instinctively jumped at the sound. My feet must have barely missed stepping on it. Offended, it cringed and rattled its way off the trail. That was a close one!

Preparing for my first trip out West, I was very concerned about rattlesnakes. I read up about them. I thought they were going to be everywhere and would be a real issue for me. I was overly cautious to the point that now it is only humous to think back. My rattlesnake encounters ended up being so few that the threat of rattlesnakes had worn off and they weren’t even on my mind, until suddenly in this moment. Although it through me for a surprise I took this situation very pragmatically. I started building a small rock cairn as an indicator for myself on the way back that I would need to be cautious of a snake in the area.

Then I drew on what I new about rattlesnakes. They are mostly blind and rely heavily on vibrations on the ground to sense what’s going on around them. They aren’t aggressive until threatened. They will move out of the way if they sense someone coming. So I decided I would tread heavily and every-so-often throw a handful of stones out on the path in front of me to startle any snakes into a rattling mode.The plan seemed good to me, so I pressed forward.

Then, unexpectedly, around the bend appeared….a man- a young man- a fellow hiker. After a friendly smile and acknowledging “hello,” I proceeded to warn him: “I just passed a rattlesnake on the trail back there around the bend. I built a cairn. So when you see the cairn, just know there is a rattlesnake in the area.”

“I just saw too more rattle snakes.” He had an accent. He didn’t sound like he was from around here.

“Did you make it to the top?” I asked.

“No, I turned around. There are too many snakes.”

Turning around because of too many snakes, hadn’t even crossed my mind as an option. It troubled me that this guy was going to give up on the hike and a potential amazing view. When you face as many hardships as I have in life, what is a rattlesnake really? It’s got nothing on me.

“Well, I’m going to the top,” I informed. “You can follow behind me if you’d like. I’ll scare away the snakes.” My ego got an espresso shot right about here. I was the brave one. I was the daring one. I had suddenly become a leader.

And just like that I had a hiking companion. His name was Gzeivieur, and he was from France. He told me how he liked to vacation in the United States and visit our National Parks. It’s a perfect topic! I love to indulge in talking about the Parks, so naturally we proceeded to talk about our National Park experiences. We had been to many of the same ones. His favorite was Yosemite. Mine was Death Valley. On his present trip, he had already been to many of the places I was headed. We got on the topic of Dinosaur National Monument, a park I would become a big fan of. He recommended I visit a place near the park called Fantasy Canyon. The name alone sounded very intriguing. He told of rock formations unlike anything he had ever seen elsewhere.

We also reined in the conversation to our most immediate happenings. I told him I camped here in the Monument. He told me he stayed in a hotel in Wilcox. My mind flashed back to those abandoned and sketchy hotels I passed by on my way here.

“Tststststsssss” My stone throwing method had worked. I had been causally tossing stones every once in awhile and I had alarmed another rattlesnake, which scooted off our path.

The trail was soon leveling off and we were nearing the end when Gzeivieur warned of another rattlesnake. This little guy was snug up against a rock right aside the trail. To continue walking on the trail would put us in teritorial risk, so we maneuvered ourselves off the trail on the opposite side, skillfully fumbling over some rocks.

And then…

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We were there! We made it! Gzeivieur had been so close on his first attempt.

There at the top was a lookout building. I’m not sure if it was intended to be a fire tower sort of building, or a weather station at some point, but it was paneled with windows which looked out into the spectacular landscape. DSC09574

Clouds had rolled in bringing out a dark richness in the landscape. Here golden wild grass carpeted the mountaintop. Just below us was the valley spread, now so miniature, speckled with trees and hoodoos, and just level with the eyes were dark blue and grey mountains. I am so glad neither of us gave up on reaching a view like this. There was a 360 degree view. We walked around all sides a few times before we began our descent.

DSC09561Despite all our snake encounters on the way up, there wasn’t a single encounter on the way down, but I did see a short-horned lizard. As we descended, my hiking pal and I continued talking all about our National Park adventures. I might have shared with him a story or two of some of my wild happenings.

I will say some of the most interesting and genuine people I’ve met have been out on the trails or at different sites in the National Parks. I’ve made a list of them to ponder, remember, and appreciate these people. All of these people I’ve met from the across the National Parks are rich in experiences. They are like books, full of adventures and tales to tell, and our paths meeting end up enriching our own stories.

It’s one thing for a solo traveler like myself to venture across my country. But here was Gzeivieur, doing the same but as a foreigner. That’s some pretty “bad a**ery,” but hey, he still wasn’t going to finish this trail because of the rattlesnakes, so I one-upped him this time. But it’s all in good humor. I was glad to meet Gzeivieur. Before we parted ways, we exchanged social media information. I continue to follow his adventures as he does mine.

Back in my car. I strapped myself in. Chiricahua National Monument provided a full and robust beginning to my summer odyssey. I was now ready for the next leg of the adventure. It was time to head into New Mexico to White Sands National Monument.

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My Crisis at Chiricahua

I was done. I didn’t want to get out of bed, or off the ground rather. Life had knocked me down and I didn’t have the energy to get back up. The sunlight woke me to numerous birds singing and chirping all around me. I was amidst a bizarre and new landscape here at Chiricahua National Monument in Southeastern Arizona on the first full day of my new adventure. Visually, it was a beautiful morning. There was much to see and explore, but life had knocked me down and here I remained.

Prior to this trip I had experienced a series of difficulties in life. There were new challenges and unwanted changes at work, drama with my living situation, and most heavy and lingering of all, a health struggle with Drug-Induced Lupus. I’m very open with the fact that apart from the Lupus I had, I have a chronic hereditary autoimmune disorder called Ulcerative Colitis. It  keeps my intestines from functioning properly and causes an array of physical challenges. I was fortunate to be on an infusion medicine which kept me at prime health for six years, but then my body negatively reacted to a final dose of the medicine, gifting me a battle with Lupus. Numerous organs in my body ceased normal function, I became extremely weak, and had a hard time standing up for more than a few minutes. During the whole course of the disease, no doctor knew what was happening. It was only revealed after the fact. This left me with lots of uncertainty and questions. My last scheduled doctor’s appointment was with a cancer specialist.

Needless to say, despite all the uncertainty, symptoms started to wear off. I started to regain my health. I worked hard to remain fit and bring myself back to life. But I had not fully recovered, and lingering inflammation was spread throughout my body, making me feel weak and unwell, and so I was tired and worn out.

I lay there in the sleeping bag in my tent thinking about the person I used to be— full of life and energy, always eager for adventure. I missed him. I missed being flooded with so much excitement and adrenaline, that I’d be up before the sunrise seeking the next new vista.

And then there were the nightmares I had, which tainted my mood. I couldn’t remember them. They were fragmented and all over the place but they also drained me. Life just left me sore inside and out. I was waiting for the next tragedy or unforeseeable event to happen. It was as if I could sense it around the corner. Deanna Favre in her book, The Cure for the Chronic Life, describes this condition of survival in which we learn to live chronically in crisis. She says “these patterns give birth to worries that permeate every corner of our lives. Soon, we become less about becoming all that God has in store and instead spend most of our time enduring what the world throws our way…When we are living in chronic crisis, we are never quite breathing in the fullness of life, but instead holding our breaths, afraid of what might come around the corner” This is where I was.

After an hour, I brought myself to resolution. I knew Chiricahua National Monument deserved my time and attention. I had done just a little exploring the previous night. The landscape was unlike anything I had ever experienced before. It was part desert, part jungle, part grassland, part temperate forest. It is a very unique location because it is where the Sonoran Desert gives way to the Chihuahua Desert at the base of the Rocky Mountain chain. This leads to a wide diversity of animals and plant life, including wild boar, fox, short-horned lizards, and sometimes, although rarely, jaguars. But most fascinating of all is the coatimundi, a relative of the raccoon which looks and behaves more like a monkey. I wanted to see one.

I got myself out of my tent and packed up. I had stayed in the one and only campground in the park, Bonita Canyon. It was a nice shaded campground with a series of small bridges. I then drove through the canyon and up the mountain to Massai Point where I would begin a hike. This park road was one constructed by the Civilian Conservation Corps in the 1930s. It begins in the dry woodlands shaded and adored with impressive hoodoos and canyon walls. The road, ascending, hugs the mountain very closely and barely evades a cliff on the other side. It seems miniature too, like not quite full two lanes. In addition there were fragments of rock strewn across the pavement which had simply eroded and fallen on the road. I strategically swerved around them, as to not damage my car nor its tires. This road was an endeavor itself.

Once parked, I began to gather my belongings for the hike. The hike would be at least 5.5 miles in a sun-exposed, rocky, dry climate. I needed to make sure I had adequate water and calories. I needed my camera, my hiking GPS, my park map, and a change of clothes. I knew when the sun rose higher into the sky, I would shed my long sleeves. Trying to pack my bag was a little hectic, because I hadn’t had time to organize my car yet. Everything was sort of just thrown haphazardly into the trunk. Somehow, in the shuffle, unbeknownst to me at the time, I dropped my keys in the trunk. Then, when I thought I had everything I needed, I closed the trunk, locking myself out of the vehicle.

I felt geared up and finally ready to go. Hiking across the parking-lot to the trailhead, I peered into my backpack to check where I put my keys and realized I did not have them. My heart began to race. This was one of my nightmares. I plopped my bag on the ground and quickly removed everything with frantic haste. There were no keys.

This can’t be happening, I thought. I raced back over to the car. I looked in the window to see if the keys were on a seat. Nope. I tried opening every door and the trunk. They were all locked. I emptied my backpack again, carelessly scratching the screen of my GPS on the jagged pavement. I did not have the keys. I looked around me on the ground. No keys.

I was alone. There was no one up here. Besides the family camping next to me way down in the canyon, loudly speaking Chinese into the wee hours of the night, I hadn’t seen anyone else in this park. Plus, the visitor center would be a very long day’s hike away, and when I passed it, it looked closed for the season.  I wouldn’t have enough water to make it there anyway. In a panic, I ran over to the NPS sign by the trailhead, to see if there was any notice about emergencies. Nothing. I checked the park map. No emergency information.

I couldn’t call anyone either. There was no cell phone service here, and I had also left my phone in the car. My head began to feel lightheaded in the angst of the moment. With denial, I went back over to the vehicle and tried the doors again. In a retrospectively rather humorous manner, I laid my hands on the car and made my plea: “God, I don’t know what to do. I just need a miracle. Just one miracle. Please unlock the door.”

I tried.

Nope. Still locked.

My resolution: Pretend like this didn’t happen. I’ll go on this hike anyway. Maybe someone else will be here by the time I get back, and maybe I’ll find a water source during my hike.

I turned my head away from the car, to begin my hike, and there laying right on the pavement were my keys.

They looked so beautiful, like some rare prized possession. It was like I was Indiana Jones coming upon the Ark of the Covenant, or the Fountain of Youth, or something.

It was right here in this location I had searched my bag over and over again. There were no keys here just moments ago.

Now, we could say I overlooked them, but I truly believe more was at work here. After I found the keys, the voice of God spoke to my soul brief and direct to the point, “Be still. Be calm. Don’t worry.” That came over me like a wave of peace, extinguishing all my anxiety, not just in this situation, but everything I had been feeling lately from my health, to my self-complacency, and the subtle anxiety which ran in the background all day and night.

It had been a long time since I heard God’s voice in my life. During my entire recent illness, though so many questions were put on the table, God felt distant to me. I felt alone. But here He was reminding me that He has me in the palm of His hand. He is looking out for me, and He cares. Yes, He is big enough to care about the world and eternity, but He also cares about me and my keys getting locked in the car. I also find it worth pointing out that in my prayer I had an idea of how this could be resolved. In a plea to solve my dilemma, my petition was for God to open the doors. God did resolve the issue, but in an unexpected perhaps even more miraculous way. In life, in the midst of my difficulties, great and small, I often often pray with my already thought out resolutions in mind. Sometimes God is on the brink of solving our problems in unexpected ways. Keep this in mind when your plans seem hopeless.

This moment of God speaking to me would be the foundation for everything I would learn and everything that would build within me this summer. This voice and this message would comfort and guide me as I would face an amazing summer of extremely cherished unfortunate and inconvenient events. Although I would continue to  seek out the voice of God during this trip, these few words would be all He would leave me with for a long while:

“Be still. Be calm. Don’t worry.”

After this incident with my car keys, my backpack seemed to carry much lighter and my body suddenly possessed more energy. Worry had been weighing me down, but God tamed that wild beast and took it away. I was ready to explore.

DSC09476 (2)As intended I hiked Ed Riggs Trail to Mushroom Rock Trail to Inspiration Point Trail to Inspiration Point itself. The first trail began by descending into a valley of trees and shrubbery. All around me stood tall dark hoodoos, clustered together at various heights. They looked alive, almost as if they were in the process of growing. In some aspects the view was reminiscent of Bryce Canyon, but here the hoodoos took on a more stalky, weightier form, and their color was a sandy grey. Here these geological features were the result of an ancient volcanic eruption. Also, though arid, lichen adorned the rocks, and greenery was draped over the landscape. At one point I came to a window in the rocks, and could look out into the valley.

DSC09462I had never beheld a landscape like this before. To me, it looked like what I might imagine one of China’s stone forests to look like. I’ve never been to China, so this is purely out of speculation and comparison to photographs. Nowhere in the United States have I been in any environment quite like this. There was such a combination of environments that it became confusing to identify and best to consider Chiricahua its own entity.  

After venturing through the forest, I ascended to arid grasslands, and then onto rock faces where lizards scurried.  The reach of my hike ended at a peninsula looking down into the canyon. It was stunning, hoodoos climbed up and down the mountains, and in the distance the canyons spilled and became level with the desert plains, showing that Chiricahua is its own location, an island in the desert. When driving to the park, I ascended from the desert into the mountains where this secret canyon lay. This unique biome and hidden world l above the desert plains was the stronghold of the Chiricahua Apache Indians.  

Back near the trailhead was a lookout tower with a plaque stating how the Apache had a secret hideout in the mountains across from the monument on the other side of the valley. One important leader and warrior was buried there. He wanted to be buried where no white man would ever tread. No one has been able to find this secret location and grave. I love mysteries in the National Parks.

I can say, without reservation, that Chiricahua National Monument is one of the top five underrated gems of the National Park Service. It is also special to me because of what happened here. Whenever I look at my hiking GPS and see the scratches across its screen, I remember my panic and God delivering me from my situation. It reminds me of his ever-presence.

I would love to someday return to Chiricahua National Monument, reimagine its history, explore its stories, revel in its landscape, and find a coatimundi. I never did see one.

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A New Adventure: An Expedition of Being Lost

This adventure starts with blood, droplets to be precise, running down my arm. I was not sure what to do. I was prepared for many circumstances. I knew how to best handle a bear encounter. I was accustomed to venomous snakes by now. I knew how to avoid hypothermia, and I may have learned a thing or two about sandstorms, but I was not prepared for the angry TSA agent at Chicago’s O’hare International Airport.

Somehow in the midst of things, while taking off my backpack, one of the sharp edges of a National Park pin I had adorned on my backpack, latched into the skin of my thumb and ripped, providing a slender stream of blood running down my arm towards my elbow. I wasn’t aware there was even a wound, until I saw the alarming bright red color cascading down my arm. I grasped my thumb with the rest of my fingers in the palm of my hand, adding pressure to stop the bleeding, and prevent the blood from dripping onto anything.

“Hurry up! Keep moving!” The TSA agent called out in a passionate and bothered tone.

I was trying— trying to get my belt off, remove my laptop from it’s case, put my shoes up on the conveyor belt, and empty my pockets while not losing location of my plane ticket nor wallet. And trying not to bleed on everything. If anything was an omen or foreshadowing of the rest of this year’s summer adventure. This was it.

In a clumsy sort of juggling act, I got all my parts and pieces up onto the conveyor and walked into the tubular cylinder for my body scan. Nobody knew of my bloody situation. I passed through, my belongings were delivered back to me, and I was trying to put myself back together and manage my wound before I’d be reprimanded for holding up the line.

Phew! I made it. First order of business: find a bandaid. I went from gate to gate. Either there was no employee or the agents were too swamped with passengers boarding flights. After adequate effort, I found a kind lady at a gate who disappeared and came back with three bandaids “just in case.” I was all set.

Here I was, on the verge of a new adventure. I had prepared months in advance for this. This would be my third great National Park adventure and road trip. Two years prior I had ventured out West, primarily to California, and hiked and camped in Yosemite, Sequoia, Death Valley, and other National Parks. That was the prelude, the falling in love with the National Parks, that spurred my month long National Park adventure the following year, in which I pondered the Canyonlands and reached my highest summits. This summer would be the grand sequel, a continuation, the ongoing romance of me and the natural world.

Reading my accounts, one might think I am sort of a freespirit, and although that title does sound appealing, I do like my adventures to be planned out. I do make elaborate itineraries. I may not always stick to them, and I adjust when needed, but the underlying fear is to miss out on something, so I want to make sure all major points of interests possible are considered.

My plan was to fly from Chicago to Phoenix Sky Harbor, get a rental car I had secured months prior, and venture from Arizona into New Mexico, down through West Texas to the border of Mexico, back through New Mexico, up through Utah, Colorado, Wyoming, California and finally conclude in Las Vegas. The focus of the trip: visiting as many National Parks sights as possible and seek beauty and inspiration.

By now, I knew what I was doing, I was well experienced. I was only tired. A number of life’s circumstances had worn me out. I was hoping that this trip would rejuvenate me and provide me new perspective. I seek God when I am out in the wild. I believe he designs the natural world to point us to him. When we lose ourselves in it, God uses the beauty and symbols of nature to speak to us. When we seek, God opens the door. He honors that.

During my plane ride from Chicago to Phoenix there were no interesting characters to chat with, no painted young lady heading off to a tattoo convention nor a ditsy girl asking me if two bottles of water is enough for an overnight trip into the Grand Canyon. Nothing like that. I was alone to my thoughts. I knew I would be making many more memories, and it would be important to not forget any of the experiences I’ve had thus far, so I cracked open my journal and made a long outline of everything I remembered from my previous epic summer adventure. I would use that outline to start my blog, write a book, and recollect that entire summer experience. With that behind me, I would feel free to soak up new experiences, savor them, and write about them.

When I got to Phoenix, I picked up my rental car. My sweetest deal yet: $450 total for one month. I hit the road and stopped at a familiar Chipotle in Casa Grande, which I had eaten at the summer before. It was a good place to stock up on calories, and it was also right across from a Walmart to stock up on supplies. I’ve gone into great detail of how this works in the record of my previous adventure, but essentially, I have figured it cheaper to buy much of my camping gear after arriving, instead of paying for extra luggage. As quick as I could, trying to save daylight, I stocked up and hit the road southeastward to Chiricahua National Monument. I had entertained the idea of heading west to Organ Pipe Cactus National Monument, but after being bombarded with warnings online about safety; reading about a murder taking place in this National Park; and the National Park Service posting:  “Illegal border crossings and activities, including drug smuggling, occur daily,” and what to do when encountering people in distress, I decided I didn’t need any of that in my life. Hence southeastward to Chicachua I went. I knew very little about this National Monument, and hadn’t heard about it until planning this trip, but its landscape looked out of this world.

The last encounter with civilization on my way to Chiricahua National Monument, was the town of Wilcox, Arizona, a half-dead, barely-clinging-on sort of place. With abandoned gas stations and hotels here and there. I was thinking, I’m really in the sticks now, but not so much sticks as much as prickly cacti. The next thirty five miles of the journey would be desolate but stunningly beautiful. My car swooped down a long stretched of two lane road surrounded by fields of amber waves and majestic purple mountains on all sides in the far distance, bringing to life to me a line from our National Anthem. I had to stop my car to step outside and take it all in. When I turned my car off, I was greeted with a profound quietude and peace. There were no other cars, no other sounds, just a rich and warmly golden glowing landscape, great distances for my eyes to see, an overwhelming sense of appreciation, and a keen sense of patriotism.

I took some photos and continued on my way. As I was driving, I was reflecting on all the diverse landscapes I have seen, from the tropical islands of Florida, the thick forests of Tennessee and Kentucky, the rounded reaches of the Sierra Nevada, the odd beauty of the Death Valley, the rocky cliffs of Maine, the red earth and pine forests of Utah, the beaches of California, and the prairies of the Midwest, even the high forests of Mexico, the deserts of Peru, and the jungle of Panama. I have seen many places, and I know they come from the same artist. The more landscapes I see, the more I get to know God in a grander sense. I see the extent of his artistry. The creativity and diversity is abundant, showing just how magnificent, wide, and expansive God is. Who is God? Take a moment, hike a trail, climb a rock, watch the sunset, observe everything and consider it purposeful, designed with meaning: God revealing truth about himself to you.

That is one of the main appeals of nature to me— the intimacy I find with God. Surely in this trip God would speak to me like he has done in the past. Formulaic, I thought: Get away, spend time alone, surely God will meet me here again. I do, I truly do believe God finds the soul out seeking him in the wilderness. But at the beginning of this trip, to an extent, I thought I had God figured out. I had put him in a box. I thought I found a way to hear from him on demand. Need God to speak to my soul? Simple. Get out in the wild alone. This would prove to be a humbling experience. Literally and figuratively I first would have to spend some time wandering in the desert.

 

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Sea Foam and Seals

Crystal Cove State Park in California. I found it in a magazine. The picture alone was the selling point. I had been here prior, the summer before when I camped three miles up in the hills and bluffs alongside the ocean. Up there, remotely camping, with the ocean ahead and below on one side and the glow of Los Angeles in the distance behind me was a truly unique camping experience. I was in a super busy area of the country but found a secret area of peace and solitude.

This summer I was back at Crystal Cove, just for the day. I had left Ricky’s home in the morning, when he left for work. Today I needed to make my way towards Las Vegas where I would fly the next morning back to Chicago. Ricky had recommended that I save my drive to for later in the evening, because if I tried during the day, the roads would be ridiculously busy.

I started talking to someone at Crystal Cove, who also recommended I leave later, so I decided just to make a day of it at Crystal Cove. Although the campsites right next to the beach are very popular, the beach at Crystal Cove is not. The park is located in Laguna Beach, and so people chose the more popular beach named after the town. That’s where all the action is. Here it’s a little quieter. Crystal Cove has a series of trails in the hills and bluffs, the beach, and the camping. It’s all accessible from one main parking lot. It’s a very clear and well managed state park.

When I pulled into the lot, I parked my car at the far end where it was quiet and still, where I could be free to spread out, because my first order of business was to clean out my car and pack up. I had lived a month out of this car. I had things tucked in every nook and cranny. I had camping supplies, souvenirs, food, sand, and all sorts of odds and ends I had accumulated.

I pulled out my suitcases and spread them open in the parking lot. I opened all four doors of the vehicle and I began to organize. I thought the whole scene looked ridiculous, as I was so spread out, so I took a photo.

As I pulled out my pins and stickers for Capitol Reef and Arches, I began to get sentimental. It seemed so long ago, yet it was on the same trip. I had traveled so far and seen so many things. I tried brushing the red Utah sand out of my car, which had accumulated around the driver’s seat. I gathered up all my park maps from Saguaro all the way to Great Basin and secured them together in a bag from Disneyland. I had my Rocky Mountain tie-dye t-shirt, my sweet L.A. kicks, the flyer on the plague from Lake Tahoe— I figured I could toss that. I found my map of Nevada with the ghost towns highlights by the park ranger —I wanted to keep that. I had two SD memory cards full of photos, a tin cup from the general store in Moab so I could cook oatmeal over the fire, and my journal with pages exploring my thoughts on the Canyonlands.

There were so many pieces of my adventure to pack up, and it was all so meaningful. Everything held a story, and I felt very accomplished. I had completed the journey, and I had grown in many ways. I could say I grew in experience while also growing in understanding of myself, life, my canyons, and the world around me. Along with that my imagination grew, having visited many different environments and landscapes I had never before experienced, my ability to reimagine, revisit, and wander around these places in my mind would now be in my capacity.

When I was done packing up everything I put on my flip flops and swimming trunks and headed down the short sandy path to the beach. Crystal Cove is named appropriately. The beach is located in a cove and to me crystal is congruent with the beauty this place presents. Some associate the term clear with crystal. The water is nice but not clear as crystal. To me crystal also seems delicate and fine, almost like a gem, and this place is a gem. Its fine and exquisite in beauty —blue sky, blue ocean, sandy beach, sharp rocks with the waves dancing dramatically upon them. I took in the deep salty air, drug my toes into the sand, listened to old man ocean endlessly speak. I layed down and felt the salty breeze blow across my skin and the sun surround me in warmth.

After resting there a while the sky grew cloudy and the air brisk. The wind caused beautiful waves to crash into rocks extra tall and crescendo into the air on the sides of the beach. I went for a walk, and saw something dark pop out of the water a short distance off and remain. It was a seal swimming toward land in the foamy sea.

Out in the distance above the water light beams broke through the clouds sending spotlights down upon the ocean, reminiscent of the beams shooting into the dark crevices of the Canyonlands and illuminating the mountains peaks in the Rocky Mountains. They served as a reminder of what I had learned throughout this trip, how God desires to illuminate the dark places in our lives, make them beautiful, and take us out of our canyons leading us to the mountain tops, which are places of fulfillment and peace.

The ocean, the way it roars, the way it endlessly speaks, the way it crashes, soothes, refreshes, evokes feeling, and is always moving is a reminder of the life God has breathed into the world. Not only that, but the ever present waves remind us of the every constant presence of God in all of nature. God I believe is the author of movement-—to feel the breeze and hear the ocean is to feel the movement of God.

When the wind grew even stronger and the air cooler I decided to return to my car and begin the final step of my summer adventure. The plan was to drive to Red Rock Canyon National Conservation Area just outside of Las Vegas to camp and wake up early for my flight back to Chicago the next morning. There however would be a few unexpected occurrences that would add just a little more story to be told.

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Thank you for joining me on my summer adventure of 2016 here on my blog. Although there is more story to be told, this completes my blogging on this particular trip. To join me on the remainder of the journey and learn more about the adventure thus far, read my book Canyonlands coming out Christmas 2018!

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Exploring Los Angeles

Los Angeles- there’s a certain energy about it that’s unique and always enticing. It’s about more than just the beautiful beaches which lay on its outskirts, it’s wide boulevards outlined with palm trees, the luxury of Beverly Hills that’s almost incomprehensible, and the grit and dust of the city which sprawls with seemingly unlimited people and opportunities. Los Angeles is a place that has made a name for itself, and I always want to experience that name and try and figure it out. It’s a hard place to figure out, because its just so diverse.

Here’s how I see it. It’s the land of surfers and skateboarders, of Hollywood trendsetters, and the social elite. It’s the land of the vain and self-obsessed, the die hard liberal, and the vegan gluten free soccer mom. It’s the land of graffiti, the burrito, towering palm trees, expansive beaches, and Mexican immigrants. It’s a land of new ideas, and lost dreams, of success and failure, high tops and flip flops, and sprawling poverty in the dusty dry air. It’s a land of struggle, of creativity, of bright neon colors… and traffic, horrible traffic.

This would be my second visit to the Los Angeles area. The summer before I visited downtown Los Angeles, Hollywood, and Disneyland for the first time, while I camped in Malibu and Laguna Beach. This year I was making a last minute decision to visit Los Angeles. I was arriving from Pinnacles National Park and would stay with my friend Ricky in Huntington Beach.

I had a hard time trying to get in contact with Ricky. My backup plan was to try and find a spot to camp in Crystal Cove State Park in Laguna Beach. I had camped there before, but the only campsites that would likely be vacant were the hike-in campsites, three miles removed from the beach up in the hills. Luckily contact was made, and I was able to invite myself to stay at Ricky’s with his welcome.

Ricky has been a long distance good friend of mine, who is just a couple years older than me. He is someone I find to be very smart, of sound judgement, and also adventurous. He can talk about and entertain just about any topic, which makes him interesting. Recently he has been investing in his future by studying and training to become a pilot. Originally from Ohio, he moved to Los Angeles alone, and after being followers of each other on social media, we were able to meet last summer, and we hit it off. Although sometimes hard to get a hold of, when I do get a hold of him, he is a good listener and always willing to help out. He advised me when I was looking to buy my car later that year, and that meant a lot to me.

Driving into Huntington Beach, traffic was horrendous. Traffic all throughout the greater L.A. region is always bad, but a accident had three lanes of traffic reduced to one. When I arrived Ricky had to do some grocery shopping. I accompanied him and was excited to finally, after nearly a month, be able to buy some cereal and milk, something that was typically a staple in my diet. Something that is usually so commonplace was now exciting.

Ricky owned a nice condominium which he was constantly renovating, with plans to increase its value, sell it, and move out of California. He had a guest room, where he blew up a giant air mattress for me. I felt like I was living the life of luxury. I had a comfortable and spacious mattress to sleep on, running water just steps away, and access to a hot shower and a bowl of cereal and milk. That evening, we caught up a little, and I inquired about places to visit in the city. I’d be here for two days. I wanted to spend the second at Disneyland, but I needed some recommendations for the first. Ricky had to work, but he provided some good recommendations, and we planned on meeting up at the end of the following day for dinner.

Ricky gave me a key to his condo so I could come and go as I pleased. The next morning I was up bright and early. My first stop of the day was at the Old Los Angeles Zoo in Griffith Park. Griffith Park is a massive park in Los Angeles that houses many different features and trails. The zoo that was once there was abandoned as a new zoo was constructed elsewhere in the park. Now the abandoned zoo cages and walkways can be explored. One can even go right inside the areas the animals used to dwell in. I climbed into one area and took this picture and posted in online with this caption:

13517544_10210327919454753_2627697168926187287_oVisit the old Los Angeles zoo and see the wild Josh in captivity. The Josh is a very adaptable amiable creature who can be found in prairies, temperate forests, alpine tundras, and dry deserts. The Josh is native to North America but it is believed to be an ancestor of those from the Iberia peninsula. The Josh is an omnivore and gatherer whose diet consists of meats, vegetables, nuts and berries, breakfast cereals, and tacos. When threatened the Josh is known to retreat and is rarely found to be aggressive.

Leaving the Old Zoo, I proceeded to the top of the park where the Griffith Observatory lies. I was there early enough that the place was very quiet. The observatory building itself is a beautiful white domed deco style planetarium, with a sculpture out front. It appears in many movies.

I wasn’t so much interested in that building as I was in the view of the Hollywood sign and L.A. down below in the distance from atop that hill. The view of the Hollywood sign was clear but the hazy dusty and polluted sky made Los Angeles difficult to see. Also, from the observatory,  a series of dusty trails ran down the hill. I was familiar with these trails, because a lot of celebrities and YouTubers from the area love to take pictures and videos from this place. I literally ran down a trail, for time’s sake, for there was much more to be seen. I wanted to experience it, but I didn’t want to spend a lot of time here. Running back up the sandy path was a very strenuous workout. When I got back to my car, I turned the air conditioning on full. The parking lot had grown crowded. I connected to the parking-lot’s wifi network to determine my next move.

I ended up at the Autry Museum of the American West, located right on the corner of Griffith Park. I had driven by it earlier and it looked interesting. Parking at the museum was ample and easy, and so I decided to give it a go. When I got inside I was fully enthralled. I had spent many nights of this trip, reading my book about the American West, as I traveled through the West. Paring that book and this whole trip together, made history come to life for me. And this museum was the grand finale. Numerous things I had read and learned about were now before my eyes. The museum told the history of the West and was filled with relics from the era of the cowboys, natives, and pioneers. There was one room with fancy old bars and slot machines taken out of saloons. Another was filled with old sheriff badges and elaborately designed revolvers that were fine pieces of art. There were also artifacts from the native people, a California stagecoach, paintings depicting many scenes and landscapes, sculptures of characters of the West, and a whole exhibit dedicated to the singing cowboy era of Hollywood. As a grand finale, I came to a room with a complete chuck wagon. As silly as it may sound, I was so excited by the chuck wagon. I read so much about it in my book and now  I was seeing one before me, every part explained. It made the strenuous life of the cowboy all the more real to me.

Leaving the museum, I was very satisfied. I stopped at a Del Taco near the park for a quick lunch, then I drove to the Glendale Transportation Center, which serves as an Amtrak station. I admired its Mission Revival and Spanish Colonial Revival Style architecture. I then searched my gps for a place to get a haircut, because I needed one, and I wanted to look good and on point for all my pictures with Disney characters the following day, truth be told. My attempt to find a barber was unsuccessful, but I ended up at the Goodwill Southern California Outlet. It was huge and on the edge of Hollywood. My thrifty mind knows that a Goodwill store is only as good as the wealth which surrounds it. Sure enough, I found a great find- a pair of Nike high-tops, which looked like it stepped right out of the 90s untouched, with bright green zig zag stripes on the sides, purple heels, and orange paint artistically splattered on the sides. This had to be my best thrift store find to date.

While I was standing in line, a middle aged latina woman, with her hands full of clothes, started talking to me.“Those are muy bien lindos,” she began speaking. “Make sure you take good care of them. Get the green soap they sell at the laundromat. That works really well on shoes, to keep them clean.”

“Oh, is that right?” I had to say something.

“Yes, use the green soap, it comes in the little packet. It’s like a miracle on shoes. They sell it for like 25 cents. You know what I’m talking about right?”

I nodded my head to pacify her enthusiasm. I loved how she assumed I knew what her laundromat was and the soap they sold there. Thanks for assuming I’m a local, that’s flattering I thought, but I know nothing about your laundromat and their soap.

I thanked her and walked out of there having bought the best L.A. souvenir I couldn’t have even imagined.

My final stop was at Downtown Disney, where I would purchase my Disneyland ticket for the following day. Downtown Disney at Disneyland is a very chill place, especially in comparison to Disney World. You can just sort of walk around leisurely in Downtown Disney in and out different stores and around restaurants, enjoying the bright colors and tasteful instrumental Disney music playing the background. I grabbed a sandwich at Earl of Sandwich, and then went into the World of Disney store, where I bought a Mickey Mouse tank top I would wear into the park the following day. I may not have gotten my haircut, but I got a pair of sweet kicks and a cool Mickey tank. I was gonna be a cool cat walking around the park.

Once I was back at Ricky’s, we went together to a casual Peruvian restaurant located in a nearby strip mall for dinner. Over some lomo saltado, we opened up to each other about our love interests. I told Ricky about a young lady I worked very close with whom I found really attractive and felt very hopeful with. She shared so many interests with me, was smart and with it, and seemed to have a similar upbringing. I admired her intelligence, her sense of adventure, her humor, her simple style, and most attractive of all, her interactions with others. My plan was to ask her out once I was back home. I was so excited about the prospect that during this trip, there were multiple occasions I would be driving, thinking about her, and in all the excitement of imagining a life together, my heart would start beating faster, and I would find myself going ninety miles per hour. I had to slow down.

Unfortunately, when the summer was over and the time had come to pursue her. She dismissed me, showing no interest. I had to move on, and so I suppose somewhere, amongst my grand map of life, there is a little ghost town with her name across it.

After our Peruvian food, Ricky drove me to another strip mall (It seems everything in the L.A. area is in a strip mall) where we had some ice cream. I had some Frosted Flakes flavored ice cream. Ricky talked to me about Instagram and this social media strategy he had. He asked me if I had a social media strategy. I had never even heard that term before. We proceeded deeper into the topic of the internet, and I asked him about where data on the internet is stored. He explained it in great detail.

Back at the condo, when we were both wrapping up the day, getting ready for bed, I was working on a strategy, not a social media strategy, but a Disneyland strategy. One should not walk into a Disney park without a strategy. A Disneyland strategy takes some fine skill and careful consideration. I plugged in my camera to charge, laid out my outfit for tomorrow, and secured my park ticket, which prominently displayed Olaf’s face on it, in my wallet. I was ready, Disneyland, here I come!

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Pinnacles of Purpose

I was venturing out of Pinnacles National Park in a landscape that I still struggle to describe. There were trees, and there were plants, but everything was extremely weary and dry. Drought, and too many days like today, with 104 degrees, had taken a toll on the landscape. I was fortunate to get my hiking done very early in the morning, before the sun came out to scorch. Everything around me was so thirsty. Stream beds were dried up, bridges that once passed over water passed over rock and dust, and adorning all park structures were signs warning of extreme fire danger.

Despite its conditions, the park was fascinating with enormous volcanic boulders to crawl and climb under and around. Also, no one was there. The heat and threat of fire was probably enough to keep most visitors away and allow me to have the park to myself.

The plan now was to drive to Los Angeles, a seven hour journey to the great Pacific coast and the energy of the city. This was a change from my original plan. I had been set on visiting San Francisco, staying in a hostel, and visiting the Walt Disney Family Museum, but for the past four days I had been plagued with an uncanny feeling- a strange uncomfortableness with my plan. I would be out hiking, enjoying the wonders of nature, and then my mind would wander off to my San Francisco plan, and I would began to question if I should follow through. At night I would study my road atlas, trying to find good reason to change the course of my journey. I really found no legitimate reason to all my hesitancy, and that perhaps is what troubled me the most. I had done my research. I had made my plans and reservations. On the surface, everything was in order, but this hesitation would not leave me. So after four days of wrestling with my decisions, I changed my plan. My reason for this was not a very logical one, but rather based seemingly on intuition. Later I would discover there was something much greater behind these feelings than my own intuition.

Thirty miles removed from Pinnacles National Park I still hadn’t seen anything noteworthy, just the peculiar desert-like landscape and an occasional tumbleweed, but then finally the first sign of life-  a mother and what appeared to be her daughter waving on the side of the road next to their car. They obviously needed help, but I continued on driving. I had a new plan to follow, and I knew the trip to Los Angeles would be a long one. Then suddenly my mind was prompted to recall my canyons and my most sprawling canyon of all: selfishness. I knew in that moment I needed to let light into my canyon of selfishness. I needed to turn around and help these people. I felt convicted.

I turned around and drove back. I rolled down my window, and they immediately started speaking in Spanish. Not a problem. I speak Spanish. They told me that they ran out of gas. “Have you called anyone for help?” I asked. They informed me there was no phone service in the area. We were in the middle of nowhere. I had never run into this sort of situation before. How does it work? Are they trying to trick me into something? How do I help them?  Well, I guess I need to drive to the nearest town and bring them back some gas. “I’ll go and get you gas. Wait for me. I will return,” I told them.

I searched my gps for the nearest gas station and the screen displayed a forty mile distance to the nearest one. Forty miles there and back would certainly put me behind on my journey, but I knew that I needed to help these people. This moment was actually a pinnacle and pivotal moment in my summer.

On my way to the nearest gas station I was overcome with the most joyous and fulfilling emotions as I put the puzzles of the past few days together. There was a reason for everything. There was a reason I was plagued with uncanny feelings about going to San Francisco. There was a reason why I changed my plan. There was a reason why I decided to head to Los Angeles instead of San Francisco. If I didn’t have those feelings, if I didn’t change my plans, if I wasn’t on my way to Los Angeles, these people would be stranded and at the mercy of the desert in the 104 degrees. But random events and purposeless intuition were not the reasons for all of this coming together. I knew this was orchestrated and that’s what filled me with this joy.  We could say this all started weeks before in Canyonlands National Park, when God made me aware of the canyons in my own life. Being aware of my selfishness made me more sensitive to my actions and the need for change. The hesitation about going to San Francisco was not solely my intuition, but rather the Holy Spirit alive and at work in me, prompting me and guiding me to this moment.

While I could have felt burdened by my own obligation to goodwill, rather I felt extremely blessed. Because this moment was verification for me that God has been and is working in me. I felt so humbled yet empowered to be a part of God’s plan. I felt so purposeful.

After my drive, which was more like a rocket ship ride of emotions, my gps led me to an abandoned factory, but there was a gas station in front. I pulled up to the pump, only to notice that this gas station too was part of the ghost town. I drove a little further and rolled into a small McFarland style town with a gas station and people selling tacos on the side of the road. I went inside to the convenient store of the gas station to explain my situation. They informed me that they didn’t have gas cans. I left and found an auto body shop. I filled up a gas can and bought some water to take back to these stranded acquaintances.

On the drive back, I was at first concerned that these people wouldn’t be there, and all of these feelings of purpose and pieces coming together would actually prove false, but I came to the conclusion that this would still be very meaningful and worth my time. I knew that what I was doing was actually an act of worship. I was getting gas for God, considering him in the least of these. I’m entertained with the thought that the high church could list fanciful things to bring before the altar of God, but I would bring my gas can to God, and it would be very meaningful.

Despite my speculation, they were still there and extremely thankful when I poured gas into their car. “Muchisimas gracias,” they told me. It wasn’t just convenient that I could communicate to these people in Spanish. I knew this was on purpose, and there was something important I needed to communicate to them. I told them, in all sincerity, “don’t thank me, thank God, because He put me in your path.” They agreed with me and said in Spanish, “thanks be to God.” I gave them the bottles of water. They insisted on paying me, and then they took off, and that was that. I stood alone in the desert next to my car with a feeling of fulfillment and a smile on my face. Life is beautiful, I thought.

I know these people may feel blessed to have received my help, but really I feel more blessed to have helped them, knowing that God was working through me and brought meaning and fulfillment to all my feelings and changed plans.

I share this story not to brag on anything I have done, but rather to bring glory to God. I just find it so awesome how God coordinates to provide.  I also think this story serves as an example of how the Holy Spirit may work in one’s life. Next time you have hesitation about something without good reason, I say stop, pray, and be still. These feelings may not be plain intuition or a bothersome anxiety, maybe these feelings are not bad at all, but rather the Holy Spirit  prompting you. Listen. Just listen. Don’t get caught up in your emotions, but listen for purpose. Maybe God is trying to put you on the path of someone to help or is trying to help you out of your Canyon. If you haven’t invited God into your life and are struggling to find purpose and meaning, it is in Him that you find it. Reach out to him. His spirit wills and acts in his people to fulfill His purpose and fill your life with meaning, even in the simplest of things.

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The Golden Gate National Parks

“I’m here, but I’m not really sure where I am,” I said going up to the counter in the visitor center for Point Reyes National Seashore.

After much back and forth, I came to the conclusion that I would skip my plans to drive into San Francisco, and stay in the Fisherman’s Wharf Hostel. I had fun things planned on my original itinerary. I wanted to visit the Walt DIsney Family Museum, Lombard Street, Japantown, as well as some other typical sites. But for some unknown reason at the time, my plans did not sit well with me, and many nights I reviewed my atlas, trying to figure out how I could change my plans.

Along my way across California from Lake Tahoe I connected to internet with my tablet and found the address to this visitor center for Point Reyes National Seashore. I decided I would pay a visit to the seashore, check out the nearby Muir Woods, and find a good view of the Golden Gate Bridge, but at the end of the day I would not cross over into San Francisco, instead I would proceed to Pinnacles National Park.

I followed my GPS instructions to the Bear Valley Visitor Center for Point Reyes National Seashore, and when I arrived, I knew close to nothing about the layout of this park, what its features were, or how it fit into the surrounding area.

The kind National Park Service employee handed me the park map. She explained some sites worth checking out and gave advice on where to get the best view of the Golden Gate Bridge.

Leaving the visitor center I headed towards Point Reyes Lighthouse. The drive was very pleasant, through forest, and along the water of Tamales Bay, by little fishing ports and quaint small towns, and then into the rolling hills and grasslands that led up to Point Reyes itself. Eventually the road was closed, so I parked my car and went walking on the road at the cliff’s edge.

DSC06149Another couple were walking near to me. We exchanged small talk about the intense wind and thick fog which came over the place. Just moments earlier, little further inland, the sky was blue and warm. But here it was cold, windy, and all mysterious-like. We could hear the ocean and smell the salt air, but the fog and mist was so thick that we couldn’t see water at all. All we could see along this road were the trees that grew on the sides, which had been so consistently blown by the wind that all of their branches had grown in one direction.

The lighthouse sat down lower than the plateau of the land among rock cliff on a peninsula, where the land fell sharply into the ocean somewhere below the fog. To get to it I had to walk down hundreds of stairs. Roaring sea and misty wind was whipping all around. Inside the lighthouse I found refuge and a small group on a tour with a Park Ranger. I listened in.

DSC06159This place was fascinating, but was by no means relaxing. It seemed at any moment this lighthouse could fall off the cliffs edge into the sea hidden somewhere below the thick fog. I knew this was not going to happen, but it was astounding to imagine the lighthouse keeper having to live out here back in the day, so isolated from everyone else, hidden in the fog for much of the year with the tumultuous weather all around. My attempt at imagining such a life inspired me to conjure up pieces of a story I considered writing, but I would eventually abandon that story, and those ideas would become but a ghost town.

After seeing the lighthouse, I drove down to the beach. It was so cold and windy that my visit was very brief. I got back in my car and drove further inland. I stopped by a small gourmet grocery store across the street from the bay where I ordered a double decker BLT and chicken salad sandwich which was absolutely monstrous and delicious. This was not the kind of store catering to tourists but seemed like a local establishment for the people who were so privileged to live nestled in these woods among the bay, cliffs, and sandy beaches.

DSC06182At one point in the day, I came to a great overlook of the ocean. I looked down across the shoreline and could see the many cliffs and the very edge of California spilling into the Pacific. I noticed a path along the wispy wild grass. It descended down a hill among the cliffs to the water below. It was beautiful. I could see miles of beach and waves reaching for shore all over. The sun was warm, and the California coast was just plain golden. I got down to the water and was climbing over rocks to get to a cove where I saw a beach. When I approached the cove, I noticed something peculiar. Everyone was naked. There were maybe ten elderly, weathered, leathery, naked old men. Welcome to California!  I turned around. I didn’t want to see anymore. I passed some young clothed teenage boys descending while I was ascending. Should I warn them? Nah, it’ll be a surprise.

I got back in my car and made my way to Muir Woods National Monument, named after, John Muir, a man difficult to encapsulate with words. He was alive from 1838 to 1914 and is one of the greatest and my most admired explorers. He wisely advocated for the preservation of American wilderness, back before conservation was a thing. He is informally referred to as the father of the National Parks. As a skilled writer, he involved people in his adventures through essays and books. I admire John Muir greatly for his view of the world, like myself he looked everywhere and saw design and meaning. He viewed nothing in nature as accident but all as part of a continual creation. He also saw commonality in design, throughout nature, and saw unity in the entire natural world, which he writes reveals the “glorious traces of the thoughts of God.”

All throughout the day, with all my driving through the Point Reyes area, cars were sparse, parking was ample, but here at Muir Woods, the place was full, and many people were walking alongside the narrow road. These people looked like true city folk, parking in every nook and cranny. All lots had signs stating they were at capacity, but I’d come to not trust those signs. I was able to snag a spot quickly as another car was pulling out.

I was excited to go to Muir Woods, because I thought I was going to Muir’s home and would be able to learn more about him. I was wrong, so when I arrived at the park, I was very confused. I kept looking for his house. It wasn’t there. This was just a section of forest named after him. I discovered Muir Woods is basically a series of short paths and boardwalks through a Redwood forest, adorned at times with quotes of John Muir and signs asking visitors to be quiet and enjoy the scenery. This was my first experience in a Redwood forest. Although similar to Sequoias, the Redwoods seem much more jungle-like, in a wetter environment, with giant ferns and more plant life growing on the forest floor. The Sequoia seems to be much more of a dry pine and very much fits the dry-piney feel of the Sierra Nevada.

DSC06194I took this visit to Muir Woods as a preview to what I would eventually find in the future in the Redwood Forest National Park. Based on just the preview from the Muir Woods, I knew the Redwood Forest must be amazing and inspiring.

My final stop of the day’s exploration was a visit to the Golden Gate Bridge. A prime viewpoint was from a place called Battery Spencer, a nineteenth century concrete battery. There was parking at the battery, but when I was there, the lot was full. There were even cars lined up waiting to pull in.

I drove further down Conzelman Road. There was another lot for people to park and observe the bridge. It too was full. I eventually found parking at a third lot, which on Google Maps is called Golden Gate Public View. Since the view at Battery Spencer was the closest and seemingly best, I decided to run alongside the road .6 miles from the small parking lot to Battery Spencer. I got to enjoy the Golden Gate bridge along my run.

Might I say the Golden Gate Bridge is something definitely worth seeing. For it’s the most impressive human construction I have ever seen. The immensity of the bridge along with the fact it was constructed in and over water, is nearly beyond comprehension. It is quite a view. I stood there captivated in wonder, imagining Baymax and Hiro flying up around its giant Red spires, and observed the little miniature San Francisco on the other side.

I might not have made it to San Francisco itself, but my visit to the surrounding Point Reyes National Seashore, Muir Woods, and Golden Gate Recreational Area was definitely a rewarding experience. At Pinnacles National Park I would soon find out that all of my hesitation to go to San Francisco was for a reason.

When I arrived at Pinnacles it was late that night, around 11pm. I had a hard time seeing campsites and orienting myself to the grounds in the dark,  but I eventually got a rough grasp. I quickly popped up Kelty and found the campground bathroom. Signs were posted everywhere about the extreme threat of wildfire, but I wasn’t too concerned. The bathroom was located right next to the campground host’s site. My car trunk had become unorganized, so as I was brushing my teeth and getting ready for bed, I kept having to open the trunk, and this door and that door, searching for things. I was growing concerned that I would become an annusiance to the campground hosts, but as far as I knew, they weren’t too disturbed.

Back at the campsite, I zipped myself into my tent. I had covered a lot of ground, seen a lot of sights this day, and now it was late, so I was tired and fell asleep quickly.

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The Plague at Lake Tahoe

“We just need to let you know that this is the last night the campground will be open for the season, due to the plague,” the host advised from her drive thru check in booth. She reached out her window, handing me a packet of papers. “We are required to give you this information about the plague.”

I’ll admit, I didn’t know what exactly the plague was. I thought it was just a very generic term used to describe a sickness that spread quickly, or that it was some sort of medieval illness. What was she doing talking about the plague here at Lake Tahoe?

“Just make sure you stay away from rodents, especially any dead ones.” My mind flashed back to the dead squirrel laying beside my tent in Great Basin National Park. After the first night camping there, it was gone. Some animal must have come for it in the night, when I was sound asleep.

“Is it still safe to camp here?” I inquired.

“Well, there haven’t been any cases of human infection yet, but as a precaution we are closing down tomorrow, and they will start treating the area.”

She proceeded to tell me where my campsite was, and I drove slowly to my site. The Lake Tahoe region was the most difficult place to secure a campsite of this entire trip. I spent a great deal of time searching online for a campground with vacancy. This was Fallen Leaf Campground at South Lake Tahoe, part of the U.S. Forest Service’s Tahoe Recreation Area. This campground was large, with many loops, but few campers remained. I pulled up to my site, and as first order of business, I read the handouts about the plague. I learned it was a bacterial infection transmitted by rodents and fleas. Although it can be fatal, it just starts with common flu like symptoms and can be treated successfully when detected early enough.

DSC06108I knew I wouldn’t be in contact with rodents. It’s not in my liking to approach them, unless we are talking about an adorable golden-mantled ground squirrel posing for a picture in Bryce Canyon. Apart from that I didn’t foresee rodents being a concern. But fleas, on the other hand, well, I didn’t know a lot about flees except that they were insects and insects get around. So I stepped out of my car and drenched myself in deet, and then I soon forgot that the Plague was even an issue. I set up my tent in the company of tall pines. In the distance between the pines I could see the snow capped mountains of the Sierra Nevada. When camp was set up, I walked across the smooth paved campground road to a general store on the grounds. I wanted to inquire about the coin showers. I exchanged my dollars for coins, enough for me to have two complete shower cycles.

The campground shower facilities were very nice. Each shower was accessed from an outside door. Inside there was also a toilet, sink, mirror, and electrical outlets. Everything I could ask for in a bathroom was there. I was excited, for it had been a week since I last showered.

When I was all clean and feeling refreshed, I put on my swimsuit, tank top, and flip flops, and  I walked a paved pathway through the forest about a mile to Lake Tahoe. I arrived and the place was busy. There was some sort of open air restaurant and bar next to the water, and many families and couples walked about and lounged on the beach.

Lake Tahoe is refreshingly beautiful, especially after having spent the past few days in the dry desert expanse of Nevada. The tall pine forest led right up to the sand where the clearest water I’ve ever seen laped against the shore. Across the twenty-two miles of shimmering blue were the snow capped mountains of the northern Sierra Nevada. I never went out on a boat into Lake Tahoe but there are so many ways to enjoy Lake Tahoe from land. You can look down on it from an overlook of the road. There it is spread out underneath the tree line, and you can look down not just upon it, but straight through it, getting a preview of how deep it is. From here you can also observe all the coves and inlets where the lake turns to hide and rest.

DSC06139Another way to enjoy Lake Tahoe is what I was doing that evening from the sand of one of its many beaches, feeling like I’d made to the ocean and had become a beach bum while at the same time looking up at the snow capped mountains feeling like a northern mountaineer.

I went out on a dock, and looking down the crystal clear water gave me a sensation I’d never quite felt before, almost a sort of dizziness. I’ve never been able to look straight down a lake before, vision unobstructed, where I could see fish swimming around at different depths, and the sand and pebbles laying untouched at the bottom. I would not take someone out here who is afraid of heights, because even though you are nearly level to the water, you are actually high up from the ground underneath, and you can see that so clearly. Despite the peculiar sensation, at the same time, it was miraculously beautiful. Beauty like this is not happenstance. It’s created.

DSC06128DSC06129A final way I enjoyed Lake Tahoe was from one of the porches of the Baldwin and Pope Estates. There, just next to the trail I arrived on, and set up behind the beach, were these two estates, preserved as the Tallac Historic Site, managed by the U.S. Forest Service. The estates contained a collection of houses built in the late 1800s and early 1900s that were the private resorts for three social elite families of the San Francisco Bay Area. All of these buildings were composed of wood fashioned in one way or another, blending this rustic north woods style with tudor elements. The estates included the large summer cottages, accompanied with dark wooden shingles, and numerous guest houses and small log cabins for the tutor, groundskeepers, and servants. They were all tied together by well kept pathways and gardens. During the day, the buildings were open for tours, but I was there in the evening. They were all closed, but people were free to explore the grounds.

I sat on the porch of the main Pope cottage, in a  rocking chair. I looked out the frame of the porch structure through the dark pines to the bright blue of the lake and the mountains beyond. I imagined, just for a moment, that this was my house. I took it all in. Just a matter of hours ago, I was in a ghost town off Highway 50 in the relentless desert sun. Now, I was sitting on the porch of a wealthy estate, in the shade of the sweet pines, looking out at a marvelous view. It was very relaxing. And it was all a pleasant surprise. I didn’t know these estates of Tallac Historic Site existed, and I thought it was so novel and welcoming to be able to enjoy the elite life freely for a moment on this porch.

When the evening grew old, my wandering around Lake Tahoe for the day became complete, and my moment of an elitists life came to a screeching halt, as I decided to grab a bite to eat at Taco Bell and visit the local Kmart.

Driving into to Lake Tahoe on the southern end, I wasn’t impressed by the surrounding area. There were numerous casinos, tacky hotels, untasteful restaurants, and noisy traffic. Of course all things of the civilized world seem extra distasteful after having spent so much time out in the nature in the wild expanse of the Great Basin. My first impression of the area, was certainly, however, not favorable, but my campground, so nicely situated with a short walk from the beach and the beautiful estates, with the stunning and relaxing view of the lake, gave me a very favorable memory of Lake Tahoe. I would return the next morning to the lake, to lay in the sun, read from my book about the West, and enjoy the beautiful view of Tallac and Taylor Creeks flowing into the Lake as silver ribbons.

This is one of those places, that would have made a great National Park, but commerce and private ownership moved in too quickly and much of the surrounding area was lost to commercial tourist consumption and casino tycoons, but, as I discovered, the U.S. Forest service does have a hold on these pockets of beauty around the lake, and I was very fortunate to discover one and also fortunate to leave without contracting the plague.

Given the opportunity, I would definitely go back and visit Lake Tahoe again.

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How I Relate to Ghost Towns

There’s something about ghost towns that’s very appealing to me. It has a lot to do with the hidden stories they possess. It fascinates me to think about what life was like in these places- to realize children were born here, people were married, men toiled in the mines, drama erupted in the saloons. People were carefully investing, gaining fortune and losing it, and some looked out their windows and pondered their existence and direction in life. And now it’s all forgotten, abandoned, nothing.

It’s a very humbling experience to walk around a ghost town. It reminds me of the fleeting nature of life and this world. As I was wandering around the ghost town of Hamilton in rural Nevada, I was thinking of how this was the focal point of so many people’s lives. They stepped out their doors, and this was their world. People  competed here for power and status and were so concerned with the local dealings of the mine and town, yet now it’s nothing. This all helps me refocus and consider what is most important in life. At then end of the day, my physical world, the buildings, the belongings, even the problems I get wrapped up in, may be gone and forgotten. Even my name in this world may be lost. But the one thing that stays true and eternal is the soul. If there’s anything worth investing in, it is that.

Along with that reminder of where to place life’s greatest concerns, I also relate to ghost towns on a whole different level. Imagine for a moment my mind is a giant map, and in that map there are booming cities of success and progress. These are my most recent creative ideas, endeavors, and projects in completion.  But also among those cities are ghost towns, vestiges of my past. These are the locations of dreams left abandoned and stories I never finished. As a writer there have been many writing projects I spent much time with. I built places and characters in my mind, only to move onto better ideas, leaving those places frozen in imagination, never complete, not developed any further. Bits and pieces of them melt and wear away from memory with time. And apart from writing, there are dreams for my life in which I spent so much time, putting in place the framework and foundations to make them happen, but eventually left them abandoned in time, and I moved on with life.

In a similar way, ghost towns remind me of lost friendships. Forming friendships is a lot like building houses. You create a foundation in which you form trust, from there you build walls in which to house shared memories and experiences, but as friendships fail or people leave, those buildings are left unmaintained, and memories are found littered around as rare relics or gone altogether. I suspect, that for many people, there are even those special people whom you loved deeper than others, whom you shared elaborate dreams with. You didn’t just build them houses, you built cities with them. Your dreams were expansive and seemingly so reachable, and then one day, the person who was held so dear was gone, abandoning a whole network of buildings and pathways, stories, and dreams.

Such failed relationships and abandoned dreams in life have left the map of my soul with a series of  ghost towns. Revisiting them can bring back a bit of bitter sweet nostalgia, but sometimes I suppose there is a raven up in the rafters, warning not to enter, because some places in life are just not meant to be revisited. These ghost towns, although sometimes not wise to revisit and dwell in, in the end and in the grand scope of things, are not bad. They aren’t always a part of the canyonlands, rather they are spread from the deserts up into the mountainsides, as a part of life’s upward journey to the mountaintop. You have learned from them to build better, wiser, and stronger.

When I pull open my map and see the ghost towns of life’s journey, they are reminders of progress. And despite moments of tragedy and heartache, when the thought of dreaming again seemed impossible, dreams somehow always find a way back into life.

DSC06043My journey along Highway 50 in Nevada was one of visiting ghost towns. As I left Hamilton, I drove the twelve rough miles back to Highway 50, and was relieved to get back to a paved road. Forty five miles later I rolled into the grand metropolis of Eureka, population 610. In Eureka, Highway 50 turns into Main Street, where one finds a hybrid ghost town and functioning county seat. I parked on Main Street and went for a walk. I found a brochure that led me on a self-guided tour of the downtown, taking me past the elegant Eureka Opera House, abandoned saloons, the hollow yet historic Colonnade Hotel, and other gems of the wild West.  

DSC06051I finished my stroll with a visit to a Rains Market, a small grocery store on Main Street. I stepped inside and was greeted with classic Nevada. Of course it wasn’t enough for Rain’s to just be a grocery store. It had to be a little above and beyond, in a Nevada sort of way. It had taxidermy animals all along the walls above the shelves. There were deer, mountain goat and lion, and fish. Later, when I was looking at Google Maps, I noticed the place is labeled Rains Market and Wildlife Museum. How fitting.

The end of my first full day of Highway 50 explorations ended fifty miles south of the highway beyond a dirt road in Berlin-Ichthyosaur State Park. The park preserves the ghost town of Berlin, which was built around a gold and silver mine, as well as undisturbed fossil remains of an Ichthyosaur, a giant marine reptile.

Before leaving Great Basin National Park, in the morning, I was concerned I might not find a vacant campsite, but I was the only one here. I set up my tent and then went to walk around the ghost town.

DSC06084Just like in Eureka, there was a pamphlet that led me on a self guided tour, but this one was hand written and copied. It told the history and significance of each building, explained how the mining system worked, told of how many young men who came to work the mines lived in a bunk house, how at its boom it had a population of just 250, yet they still had a town prostitute. It guided me to the mine supervisor’s house, the machine shop, and a big old mill. Each building was furnished, but it an haphazard unkempt way, as if one day people got up and left, and everything was left as is and wore with time. Although the buildings were blocked off from entry, I could look inside and see the titles of books left on the shelves and read the containers of products left around. It was fascinating.

When I was on the small hill next to the machine shop, I looked behind me at the desert expanse in the near vicinity, and the tall nameless Nevada mountains in the distance warmly glowing in the evening sun. I imagined the young men who left everything, or had nothing, and came here to toil in the mines. I found the view before me beautiful, but they would have looked at it through different lenses. They probably had resentment for this landscape of inescapable deathly heat and lonely remoteness.

DSC06086There was a little pathway next to the shop that led further  up the hill. I wanted to see what I could find further up, but, as I walked, a snake slithered on the path before me. I was done. I drove back to my campsite, which was beautifully located at a hills edge, overlooking the desert valley and out to the mountains in the distance. I took a short walk from my campsite to the building housing the grand Ichthyosaur. The building was locked, but I could look inside and see the fossils. On the outside of the building, on the wall, was a large mural of an Ichthyosaur, which I took my picture with, realizing this was a once in a lifetime opportunity. Where else could I get my picture with an Ichthyosaur, except in the middle of Nevada? And when would I be back?

When I walked back to my campsite, the sun was setting. I listened to the utter silence of the land. I got ready for bed, and looked up at the sky. If the aliens were going to abduct me. This would be an ideal time and location. There would be no witnesses near nor far. I climbed into my tent with my atlas, studying routes and trying to figure out exactly how my summer adventure was going to end in the short upcoming days. I had plans to go to San Francisco, but for the past few days, that plan didn’t sit well with me. I couldn’t say why exactly, but I considered other routes and places to go. As I looked over my atlas, it wasn’t long before I was sound asleep in the peace of remote Nevada..

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A Raven’s Warning: Exploring the Ghost Town of Hamilton.

DSC05980A band of wild horses galloped through the sagebrush to my left. To my right, the dirt road crumbled off into a ravine. The sun was bright and hot, and I was out here by myself. If something happens to my car, I’m done for. Stranded in the scorching desert miles from anybody, this would be it. I had taken the unnamed and barely marked road from America’s Loneliest Highway, Highway 50, further into the remoteness of Nevada, seeking the ghost town of Hamilton.

If the park ranger at Great Basin National Park hadn’t told me about this ghost town, there would be no chance I would have found it, and I would have never attempted route on this wild terrain road. It was barely a road. It was more like a path, just worn over in the resemblance of a road with ruts and holes, and parts of the path crumbling off and falling to the wayside. It meandered through the foothills of Mount Hamilton ever so roughly. Though I explained to the ranger that I was driving just a compact car, he told me I should be fine, and he said it with such dismissing confidence that I trusted him.

I considered a few times turning around back to Highway 50, but eventually I realized I couldn’t. There wasn’t enough space anywhere to turn around, with the hill on one side and a ravine on the other. I was in this until the end.

DSC05982Eventually the hills gave way to a wide valley, and I came upon the ruins of Hamilton. The ruins were largely spread out and very diverse. I parked my car over to the side of the dirt road and I first came upon the remnants of a stone house. Slates of stone had been stacked ontop each other to create a building, but now only two adjacent walls remained. DSC05988One had an arched doorway still in tact that was held in place by bricks seeming to defy the laws of gravity. In the near vicinity were other ruins of stone houses left barely recognizable, in piles of rock.  Further in, I came upon some wooden structures. There were two buildings completely dilapidated except for their roofs just laying on the ground pointing upward.

In a field large rested a collection of enormous iron gears with the insignia of Denver Colorado U.S.A. on them. My guess was that they were a part of mining equipment. In my later research, I learned Hamilton used to be booming silver town with a population of 12,000 at its peak in 1869. Two hundred mining companies were set up in the area. Hamilton boasted close to one hundred saloons and sixty general stores, along with Dance Halls and skating rinks. However, the silver deposits were found to be very shallow, and that along with a destructive fire in 1873 led the place to eventual abandonment.

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As I walked around, I observed large mining cars, twice as big as anything I had seen by abandoned mines in Death Valley. From the size of the equipment, I knew that at least one of the mining operations here must have been very large scale.

Continuing to wander around, I came upon abandoned pickup trucks and a steel-frame warehouse structure that didn’t look terribly old at all. It was in definite rough shape, but it still had a large garage door in tact and all exterior walls standing complete. I walked through a door frame. Inside I could see bullet holes all over the walls of the interior, where insulation was peeling and falling. A two story DSC06008building within the building had ominously broken glass windows. I looked up and the roof of the warehouse had holes every so often, evenly distributing light throughout the building. To me the place seemed to be an abandoned repair garage. The concrete floor was dusty and dirty and large empty tanks, tin barrels, and appliances littered the floor. I took a few steps in slowly.

This building, although filthy, would not be a bad place to squat, I thought. The last thing I wanted was to encounter some insane squatter or modern day criminal hiding out here. I stood still and quiet, and just moved my head around to observe. Then suddenly I jumped as a raven hiding up in the rafters let out a loud cry. That was enough of a bad omen for me. Something about the place did not sit well with me.

DSC06002To add to the creepiness of the place, leaving the warehouse, I walked over to a small one room wooden shack, where in the doorframe hung a noose. What is going on? First an ominous warehouse, then a raven giving warning, and now a noose hung from a door frame.

I looked down and something small was shining bright gold in the sunlight. I brushed some dust and dirt away to reveal a small bullet shell. On the end, two initials were carved. I had all intention to investigate what the initials might mean, but the golden bullet shell was lost and the initials forgotten. What came to mind at first was Kissin’ Kate Barlow from Louis Sachar’s book, Holes. She was an infamous outlaw of the wild West, and in the movie she carved her name on the canister of her bullets.

Despite the Ravens startling cry, I was not at all afraid to be here. Instead I was captivated in wonder. All the ruins, told a story, and I was trying to figure it out. I knew nothing about Hamilton, so here I was trying to put the pieces together. What were all these buildings? Why are some seemingly so much newer than others? Why was this place abandoned? What are all these pieces of equipment laying around? When I observed these large gears and other equipment oddities, I imagined for a second they were the ruins of an alien spaceship crash, those same aliens depicted in the petroglyphs all through Utah and Colorado and the ones rumored to be in the sky above Nevada.

DSC06032My last stop in Hamilton was at the Hamilton Cemetery. Tombstones were dated from the 1870s to 1890s. One portion of the cemetery was enclosed in a gothic style short steel fence, something that looked like it had come right out of the backyard of Disney’s Haunted Mansion.

Another portion of the cemetery had uniform white headstones. I noted two beared the last name of Paul, both of children who died in infancy in the 1890s. One really stuck out, as it looked like nobody bothered digging a grave, but rather buried the corpse in a pile of bricks and then propped the headstone up by shoving it down in the pile. It looked like at any moment a skeleton’s arm would reach up in the desperation from the piles of bricks.

The road I had traveled on to arrive, kept going further, and I wanted to see where it led, but as I drove, maybe an eighth of a mile further, my car almost got stuck in a rut. I decided I needed to turn around. My visit to Hamilton was very satisfying. It filled me with good wonder and mystery, and I took back with me a collection of great photos as a souvenir.

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