Camping at Golden Bluffs with an Unexpected Visitor

The sun grew bold, piercing through the forest, creating stark contrast against the dark Redwoods. My adventure companion, Zach, and I were backpacking through the Redwood Forest in northern California on our way to the Pacific Ocean to the Golden Bluffs Campground. The hike in total was to be about seven miles, but just a few miles in my backpack was getting quite heavy. I kept adjusting the straps, raising it and lowering it on my back trying to find the most comfortable position. We could have driven to the campground, but I wanted the novelty of hiking across the forest and achieving that great sense of accomplishment. 

Along the way it was rather interesting. Many of the Redwoods had hollow cavities, or had fallen to make natural bridges. I did cross one such bridge, and poked my head into a few tree cavities, but I wasn’t quite as far reaching as Zach, who climbed up into a few trees, reaching great heights. One of the first times we ever went hiking together I noted how much he truly interacts with the forest. In the Big South Fork, back in Kentucky he’d shimmy his way up a tree trunk, just hugging onto it. He’d be atop a giant boulder in a matter of seconds, and he’d pick a vine or plant from the forest and tie it around his wrist. He was a creature of the wild. 

With the light shining so powerfully above and really spilling into the forest, it revealed how the forest wasn’t as dense as previously perceived. Yes, there were lots of ferns everywhere, and a Redwood can be found in any direction. However, apart from the Redwoods, other trees were absent, and the Redwoods don’t branch and sprawl like some other trees, but more like bloom towards their tops, leaving a vacancy in the forest, a void space between one tree and the next. The path we were on was also a well-worn one, so I didn’t quite feel as though I was the wildest of places that I had perhaps expected. It was a pretty well worn playground. We were on a path called the John Irvine Loop and technically we were not in the National Park, but a state park. The area’s full name is “Redwood Forest National and State Parks.” That’s what all the signage proclaimed.  It’s a conglomerate of state parks and one limited region of federal land. Its three most comprising parks are Jedediah Smith Redwoods State Park, Del Norte Coast Redwood State Park, and Prairie Creek Redwoods State Park. We were in the latter.

In my book, Canyonlands: My adventures in the National Parks and beautiful wild I made a lot of Star Wars references. I was a considerable fan at the time, but I’m sad of what has come of the franchise. I do believe however, here it is worth mentioning that the Redwood Forest is the planet of Endor in Return of the Jedi. It’s the land of Ewoks and imperial speeders zooming past Redwoods and giant ferns. If anyone has seen the movie, this just helps paint a visual. I was getting a little worn out by the scenery however. It was the weight on my back, and the hard worn trail, that I believe were getting to me. After a while the landscape was a bit monotonous. I had tried to take many photos but the great contrast in lighting made it hard for my photos to turn out desirable. I was ready to get to the ocean!

Before we emerged from the forest we passed by an area called Fern Canyon. It was all according to plan. Fern Canyon is about a mile hike through a level canyon, about as wide as a two lane road. It wanders along Home Creek, and a number of times we hopped over or walked in the creek. We also had to maneuver over a few fallen tree trunks. The canyon walls were about a couple stories high and were sprouting with moisture-loving ferns. In some breaks between the ferns adornment, I could see water dripping down the canyon walls and mosses hugging tight. It was a unique nature feature but limited in display. The canyon narrowed us in, inhibiting our view of the rest of the forest, and all we could see was green. Green ferns, and more green ferns. 

Then….

The Pacific Ocean! We ran out onto the sand, dropping our bags and taking off our boots. The hike, though, not much to report on, had taken a major part of the day. The excitement to have finally made it to the ocean was real. I changed into my swim trunks and envisioned a refreshing swim, but when my feet hit the water, I knew I would not be swimming at all. It was very cold. That was enough. 

Looking back I noticed how the forest had abruptly ended and the landscape turned immediately into sand. There was no cohesive graduation of landscape. It was drastic. We had come out of a low line of the forest, but stretching ahead and behind I saw the forest rise and fall on sandy bluffs. Much of the bluffs were covered in greenery with sand patches peeking out. We were in a very wide inlet of the ocean, but could not see where the ends of the bluffs curved, because the ocean sprayed a fine cool mist cloaking the landscape. And if it was not spraying it was creeping up from the ocean giving a hazy appearance. This was not the fun in the sun, warm summer beach I may have been hoping for. This was a damp, chilling beach, with sand of a dismal gray color. It was a large beach. I could imagine one could walk out very far into shallow water with such a low gradient, and the sand was very fine, except for the patches of small rock and shell shards that showed up every so often. 

I realized swimming or basking in the sun just wasn’t going to happen, but I did recline on the moist gray sand for a while. Zach went out into a shallow sliver of ocean, and a large wave came rolling in and really got him good. I was observing, taking in my surroundings. The way the light hit the water with the reflection of misty opaque sky, made the ocean appear as silver–  a long stream of tinsel with crescendoing waves of white. After a brief rest, we carried on, boots in hand. There was one more mile south on the sand to Golden Bluffs Campground. It was a strenuous final stretch, having backpacked for so long, and now our feet sinking into sand with each step. At some points I walked in the tire grooves of a jeep or some vehicle that had previously been out on the sand. Unfortunately those tracks had adulterated the otherwise wild and natural landscape. 

Up ahead we started to see tent domes sticking up among wispy beach grass. Some of the blades were green but most were golden. Here we were at Golden Bluffs. It did indeed look just like it did in the magazine. I had seen this campground in a Sunset Magazine edition on Best Places to Camp in the West. When I saw it printed on those pages I knew  I wanted to be there in person. I had arrived!

After passing by a number of occupied campsites, we located ours which I had reserved in advance. All the other campsites had vehicles beside them. We seemed to be the only ones who hiked here. When we reached our campsite we were surprised to find that it too was already occupied. This has happened to me before in my camping adventures. It’s usually some couple not following the rules and feeling a great sense of entitlement. But this instance was very different, for it was not occupied by any human at all. No. It was occupied by an elk–  a large bull with a full rack of antlers. It was munching on the wispy grass. We approached. It did not budge nor was it phased. It looked up once,to quickly dismiss us and keep eating. It had no cares. “Excuse me, but I have a reservation for this site,” I said. He didn’t acknowledge me. 

We plopped our backpacks down by the cement picnic table. The elk was about a mere twelve feet from us, right alongside the area to pitch the tents. It was clear the elk was in no hurry to move, so maybe we shouldn’t be either. He was by no means threatening. I took out some beef Jerky and gatorade from my backpack. We sat there on the ground propped against the seat of the picnic tables, just watching our personal elk. I thought we might as well get situated for this spectacle. I had pulled out our hors d’oeuvres and embraced this exquisite evening of intimate dining with an elk at the Golden Bluffs. How fancy!  

When it came time to set up our tents, he was right there with us. After my tent was set I went over to the beach– the pure natural beach of the northern California coast. The sun was starting to set, and it was indeed very golden, making the dismal gray sand turn gold, and the bluff behind me by the tree line glow, and the wispy grasses encompassing our tents radiant. I wanted to enjoy the moment more than I actually did. Everything looked so warm and elegant, but I was freezing cold. I was wearing a flannel shirt over my cut-off and a pair of sweatpants. It was certainly not enough. I wrapped and held my arms close for warmth. I reclined on the sand, not long, but enough to notice the dual tone of the sunset, gold and blue. It was not like the sunset at Lake Tahoe. This was a very distinct two tone sunset, but no two sunsets are the same, just as no two lives are the same. 

Back at the campground, we were searching out firewood and noticed our elk had moved on to another site. An obviously drunk camper, walking around, offered us one of his bundles of firewood. “We’ll take it.” It was enough to make a fire to heat our cans of chicken noodle soup and dip in our Triscuits. After eating and enjoying the warmth of the fire for a bit, and going over the next day’s plan with Zach, I then secured the fly of my tent, to shield from any bit of cold and wind, and I climbed inside. I nestled myself into my sleeping bag in the sand beneath my tent floor and fell asleep. 

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The Inspiration of the Redwood Forest: an examination of the philisophical implications of Nurse Logs

It was a cool wet morning. This land was moist, damp, dark, and dripping. Beneath my feet the decaying wood on the forest floor was almost sponge-like. This sure wasn’t Southern California anymore, where I had just been the day before, where the ground is perpetually thirsty. This was a new place for me- The Redwood Forest of northern California. 

“Wow!” I exclaimed. “You have to come see this. This snail is huge!” I was impressed and also wanted to wake my travel companion, Zach. I stood outside my tent taking in the misty wet wonderland. We had arrived in the dark the night before, and I wasn’t sure of what all comprised the surroundings when we were setting up camp. So I gingerly stepped out of my tent with curiosity. What is out there? I thought. The creature I found crawling up my tent was the biggest insect I had ever seen. It was crawling very slowly, easing its way, putting its whole body into it. I had my terminology confused. It was not a snail at all. It was a banana slug. This creature had a dismal sort of earthy yellow, with a rubberlike appearance. It was rightly named, for not only do these slugs have a yellow appearance, but they also are just about the size of a small banana. I’d come to find that Zach is not an easy one to wake up and get moving in the morning, but my exclamation about a bug got him right out of his tent. He is one fascinated by critters and crawling things of all kinds. 

“That’s not a snail. That’s a slug,” he corrected, observing it and soon gently poking it with a twig, inspecting its response. I was a little bit embarrassed by my error. He went on to spy two more crawling around our camp. They are commonly associated with the Redwood Forest, but I had not read up enough about this park to know, and thus these slugs were quite a surprise for me. We had camped in Elk Prairie campground, just a short walk from one of the park’s visitor centers. After I had got the ball rolling to get the day started with my bug exclamation, I made breakfast. I fixed my campfire apple crisp in which I baked apples in a tin cup over a campfire and melted an oatly chocolate chip Clif Bar over them. After breakfast, we quickly packed up our camp, then prepared our backpacks for an overnight adventure.

Redwoods vs. Sequoias

Before embarking on our day’s big trek, we drove over to the visitor center where, next to it, we went on a stroll through the Redwood forest on an entanglement of a series of short trails with interpretive signs. We had seen some Redwoods, driving between them the evening before. It was spectacular to see the evening sun finding its golden glow between their branches on the pine floor. But now it was a distinctly different experience to be outside and in their habitat. These trees are massive, surely impressive, but they don’t quite provide the same wow factor and sense of awe as the Sequoia’s of southern California. People often assume the Redwoods are the world’s largest trees. They are the world’s tallest trees, but the mighty Sequoias are the largest in volume, having girthier trunks and therefore invoking a greater sense of awe and boldness. 

The forest flood was a bed of pine needles and moist wood decay. As we trod on top of the forest’s soft bed, we looked up at the high reaches of the Redwoods disappearing as their branches covered one another. They for sure created a canopy. We were under it. The term “inside the forest,” really is quite appropriate. We were not quite fully outside. We were inside, but a different sort of inside. We could not see the sky except for small slivers peeking in, and thus the forest was dark, dismal in appearance. Vibrance was dampened.  Looking down from the forest’s tall reaches we encountered our company, enormous ferns crowding in what otherwise would be empty space, from the trunks of the trees to the edge of the paths. I couldn’t help but make more comparisons between the Redwoods and the Sequoia. The Sequoia has a cleaner, more refined look about it. It has straight edges and is more dignified. The Redwoods are a little more wild, sloppy, unrefined, if you will. They have many knots and lumpy growths which especially congregate around their bases. They give a feebler appearance as some are split and splintering. In a couple instances we climbed up into some trees which had split, and we took our pictures in the tree cavities 

Nurse Logs

As we wandered around the interpretive paths, I could see Zach’s head just barely visibly among the ferns which grew nearly as tall as him. At one point, with him ahead, I stopped and read an interpretive sign. It had really provoked some pondering. It was next to a fallen tree. On top that fallen Redwood, or from within it rather,  other saplings were growing, and moss and greenery were laden. I had also seen, along the day’s hike, other instances in which a nearly full grown tree had grown out of the fallen trunk of another. The placard beside this tree read, “Nurse Logs.”  I read that these fallen trees provide just the right nutrients to foster growth of the next generation of plant life. They are a phenomenon of the forest. I observed this particular fallen tree in front of me. It was as if it was its own world, its own little island or little planet in the universe of the forest. This decaying tree provided so much life and created its own miniature forest. It had its own visible microbiome. 

This was very captivating to me. I knew immediately something so spectacular and  peculiar is not without a deeper meaning. What is the message God has through us through “Nurse Logs.”? I truly believe no marvel of nature goes without a message. All of nature is designed to reveal spiritual truths to mankind and point us back to God. 

I began to think about people in relation to trees. To help you follow my train of thought, or perhaps my “tree of thought,” as it branches out in many ways, let’s take this to my most rudimentary observation. A Nurse Log is dead yet it provides life. There are people who are dead, but yet provide life. Not in the sense of bodies decaying and providing nutrients for the soil or tree growth. Don’t get me wrong. Rather, I mean in the sense that those who have gone on before us enrich our lives through their past lives fully lived. Their legacies, their teachings, their love and efforts are life-giving. We often live off of or find our life-fuel through the inspiration and efforts of those who have come before us… and if we don’t, we should. There are great people of the past who are true gifts from God, whom he placed in the exact right moments of time to enrich our lives. 

Nurse Logs in Scripture

I thought about the lives of those in Scripture, whose examples provide such enrichment to our own lives. I think of the faith and commitment of Paul in the face of persecution and suffering; the openness and raw relationship between Job and God in the midst of extreme suffering; the trust of Moses despite feelings of inadequacy; and the courage of Joshua to lead a new generation in battle after their people had gone astray. As I’ve posed this question to others, there are many females in particular who find strength in Mary for her obedience to and trust in God to be the mother of His only Son. There are so many Biblical figures who enrich our lives. However, there is really only One who can truly give life, and that is God through Christ Jesus. For the sake of this Nurse Log analogy, when I say “life-giving,” I refer to one who can greatly and profoundly enrich our lives, not literally give life. There are so many life-giving people in Scripture it’s overwhelming. God has given us a record of their lives with intention to help bring about the robustness of our own lives and ultimately lead us to Him. 

Nurse Logs in History

With these thoughts, I was overwhelmed in the best sense of the word. My wheels were spinning. I decided to consider other areas of our lives or other categories of “Nurse Logs.” I thought about more recent historical figures- the Abraham Lincolns, the George Washingtons, the countless heroes of time, and the men and women who have served in the military whose sacrifices have cleared the forest for our lives to flourish, especially all the lives sacrificed in the Revolutionary War and Civil War that allow for the freedoms we have today in our country. I also considered the theologians and philosophers whose great explorations of Truth have informed my own life and enriched it, even those who more tactically have built things and made advancements in medicine. Then I took this down to a more personal level. I asked myself, Who are the specifically identifiable Nurse Logs in my life– deceased people who truly enrich my life? Whose legacy continues to feed me and provide the nutrients for my own growth?

Grandparents as Nurse Logs

First and foremost, one answer is clear: It’s my grandparents, who are all deceased. It’s their efforts, their values, their consistency which influenced the character and values of my own parents. Consequently my parents have passed on those same values to me. There are so many aspects to consider, including ones of which I will never be aware. I can, however,  examine some of the obvious ones:  faith, creativity, persistence, family, love… Those are some of the nutrients I grow out from, left by their lives. I would surely not be who I am without my grandparents, and as a matter of fact, not for my grandparents parents, and the lineage for generations. My grandparents are surely the most nutrient dense Nurse Logs in my life. Their influence, though most times not direct, is the most profound and interwoven in my life. 

Walt Disney: a Nurse Log of creativity and work ethic

I began to think of others, deceased people apart from family, who have enriched my life. When I think about my sense of creativity and work ethic I think of Walt Disney. He influences me as a writer and teacher. The broad gamut of his stories and creative work spur me on in my own creations. He adopted a principle his father gave him: “Any job worth doing is worth doing well.” I believe that. It guides me in my own creative endeavors. Walt put a great influence on the quality of my work, and his example speaks to me and influences my work. He also saw the quality and potential in others. He was a master at bringing talent together. That has influenced me to bring on outside talent into my own creative projects. I also am inspired by the value he placed in storytelling, family, and innocence.  Even my patriotism is inspired by Walt Disney’s love for his country. How sad Walt would be to see how far the company he started has strayed from his values. 

Something often overlooked about Walt Disney is that he placed a great importance on reading too. He hoped his storytelling would inspire children to read more, something I am also so passionate about. I’ve spent a few years writing for Dolly Parton’s Dollywood theme park, and in that getting to know more about Dolly Parton than I ever expected or could have imagined to in my life. I see how Walt Disney is surely a nurse log to Dolly as well, inspiring her in her theme park, resorts, and storytelling. In her book Dream More: Celebrate the Dreamer in You, she really summed up the value in reading that perhaps the three of us share. She writes, “I tend to find that people who read more are generally more engaged and therefore care more.” 

To top it all off, I am inspired that Walt made the largest entertainment company in the world out of nothing. His story is that of a poor farm boy in middle America, who moved to Kansas City with virtually nothing and was homeless. He started off on his own taking showers in a train station and sleeping in his office, but in those moments he had fierce determination, which for me is life-giving inspiration. When I feel like I make no progress in my own efforts I think back to Walt’s story and find the gumption to keep going. 

John Muir: a Nurse Log of viewing nature

Another man who inspires me, who feeds my life, is the preservationist, writer, and adventurer John Muir. I wrote about him in my book, Still Calm and Quiet: More adventures in the National Parks and the beautiful wild, when I visited his family home in Martinez, California. Through reading his work, he has shaped how I view nature- how all of creation is intricately designed with common properties reflective of a common Creator. John Muir cherished all the fine details of nature and that has helped me find delight in the most common, intricate, and most unusual things of nature. Muir has taught me to view all things in nature with awesome wonder, truly privileged to be able to look into the fantastical, artistic mind of God. This has also helped me find the great meaning in all things in nature. If it wasn’t for Muir, a number of my books would not have been written, or at least not the way they have been. I may not even have stopped to ponder the Nurse Logs and really consider what message they hold, and therefore I wouldn’t be writing any of this now. 

Muir also helped me toughen up. When I brave the elements and my uncomfortability grows strong, I think about all Muir endured on his adventures, sleeping exposed on a lump of moss or in the bitter colds of Alaska, or even walking a thousand miles across the country. 

Theodore Roosevelt: a Nurse Log of character and strength

Lastly, one who should not come as a surprise to anyone who knows me and my writing is Theodore Roosevelt. He inspires me most in terms of his character which was so solid, His commitment to principles, right and wrong, and what is just and righteous was so strong. He did not shrink from hardship but endured it to great extents, compelled by his own moral duty. 

I was initially drawn to Roosevelt learning of his childhood illnesses and the immense grief he had as a young man through tragic loss. How can someone go through such pain and suffering, yet become such a powerful and effective leader, living such a rich life, and become president? I had to study this man and learn of that which guided and sustained him. Roosevelt without a doubt would have said his own father, who passed away when he was a young man, was his greatest Nurse Log, and to me Theodore Roosevelt is certainly one of my greats. I pull great strength from his many hardships and resolve.

In 2022 when I spoke at A Badlands Chautauqua: Gathering of the Teddy Roosevelt’s in North Dakota, I began my talk with this very topic of Roosevelt as a Nurse Log. To my humbling honor, the oldest living Theodore Roosevelt repriser, the dignified Marty Jonason, told me afterward, “The part about the Nurse Logs really gave me chills.” Though I was surprised and felt so honored to receive such words, I thought of it as a challenge. Shouldn’t we all feel that sense of chill when we consider how greatly we can impact the lives of others, even when we are gone? 

Roosevelt’s Joy

Back to my study of Roosevelt, I’m most recently interested in Roosevelt’s joy. He was a man of many outward emotions, but a very prominent one was joy. A quote that often comes to mind is, “The joy of living is his who has the heart to demand it.”  One could take this to great philosophical lengths, to some interpretations that I may even disagree with. However, for me, and what I believe Roosevelt was saying, was quite simple. There is great joy in this life we are given, but it must be pursued. He follows this with his line “Life is an adventure, accept it in such a spirit,” implying that joy comes from fully embracing the adventures of life. We must remember that God wants us to be joyful, and we can find great joy in Him and his many blessings in life, but as Roosevelt says, we must pursue joy and fully live our lives. Oh, there is so much to unpack when it comes to Roosevelt. I could write a book about him… well, actually, I have, a few times.

A very important aspect of living life is also the truth that we cannot fully live our lives apart from God’s Spirit gifted through the redeeming power of Jesus. To Roosevelt’s point, we cannot fully enjoy our redeemed life without embracing all that lies in our paths and pursuing the opportunities afforded us. As he would say, this is the “adventure.”  It’s so easy to fall into gloom in an aging world that does not seem to be maturing but rather degrading. With so much going on in the world, one may think pursuing joy is but a frivolous and selfish pursuit. It’s easy to dismiss it in all our trouble, but joy is so important that God commands us at least twenty-five times in Scripture to rejoice, and joy is mentioned over two hundred times in the Bible. In Philippians 4:4 it is written, “Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say rejoice!”

With all the mention of God, amidst my discussion on Nurse Logs, one might ask, Are you going to mention Jesus as your Nurse Log? Surely Jesus is the most influential force in my life. He influences and permeates every corner of my life, and I want His influence to be even greater. If at times that’s not true, it’s yet a deeper desire to want my heart to long and let God have more control. The reason why I don’t call Jesus a Nurse Log, is because He is alive! He is not dead. This I know. Jesus was a human, but he was also divine, God in the flesh. Here I discuss the deceased purely human Nurse Logs, who nevertheless I give God all due credit for. All Nurse Logs are gifts from God.

Authors as Nurse Logs

As I’ve thought all of this over to great depths and have considered my Nurse Logs, I must also credit the countless authors through the ages whose words inspire and give us life. How fortunate we are to live in a time when we have the wisdom of the ages passed down to us in text, and so many books in print which can provide so much enrichment. It can be natural for some young people, myself at one time included, to dismiss the writings of the deceased as irreverent and outdated…but pause. I now unfold such old books with great reverence and an expectancy to learn. Some of the writers of the past were much more thoughtful than the average man today, much more conscious of God and their place in the universe. They may be gone, but the words they have left behind, may be nutrient dense. We must have sacred reverence for the past. The past too is a gift. It is all a part of God’s story. Let us cherish the wisdom of the ages and the library filled with countless examples of lives past lived.

The whole phenomenon of Nurse Logs, though fun to ponder, and an instigator of reverence and gratefulness, is also a challenge to us. Will we live lives that count for the next generations? Will they feed off of what we have done with our lives? I’ll admit I don’t know what that means for my life. I don’t know what it looks like. I have to have faith. It’s like trying to see the sky through the limbs of the Redwoods. I know it’s there, I just can’t see it. God has a plan for your life, even though you may not know the specifics. Maybe just like Marty, that should give us goosebumps. I pray that in God’s plan we may be those life-giving Nurse Logs of the forest.

Who Are Your Nurse Logs?

As you venture forward in the wilderness of the unknowns of life, take a moment to consider, Who are your Nurse Logs? and may you draw inspiration from them. 

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Flor de Mar: a poem


Flor de Mar

In the heart of the vast oceanic blue,

A bloom unlike any, a curious hue,

Flor de Mar, the siren of the sea,

She beckons with allure, voluptuous and free.

With petals flamboyant yet colors askew,

She thinks herself rare, a fantastical view,

A flower which conquers the ocean’s embrace?

But nestled in her heart is a rancorous space.

Her beauty is spoiled, her scent, repelling,

Arrogance oozes though her charm compelling,

The sea wiseley whispers, “Beware of her spell,

Her heart is all frigid, a tale she won’t tell.”

Her morals like seashells, brittle and frail,

Her life like a ship’s rigging, tangled in gale,

But Flor de Mar thinks herself second to none,

A treasure to be sought by each lord’s son.

So she tolls the sea, everything at a cost,

Thus sailors keep distance, or sanity lost, 

Oh, how the sea is her profit, her plunder,

Though her pirating ways make all hearts asunder.

Alas she dances with the waves, casting nets afar,

The seafarer wary of this Flor de Mar,

For a flower may bloom where the ocean’s waves sweep,

But her maleficent rarity makes the sailor’s soul weep.

Despite she thinks herself unique, a singular delight,

The sea tells a different tale in the hush of the night,

For it’s not the the petals nor colors so bold,

But the bitter old heart, and the stories untold.

Flor de Mar, what a nautical sight,

Presumptuous and odd, in the moon’s gentle light,

A lesson we learn from your pitiful ways,

Your heart has no holding, no anchors, no bays.

_________

Poet’s Note:

Flor de la Mar was a Portuguese ship build in 1502. It sank.

She’s also a heartless woman.

Theodore Roosevelt on Divorce: Novelist Sparks Discussion for President

Did Theodore Roosevelt ever consider divorce? Divorce is something rarely associated with Theodore Roosevelt anymore yet something that certainly concerned him. He was a committed husband and loving family man, and so his consideration of divorce was not paired with his own marriage, but rather with its implications on society at large. During the turn of the century Roosevelt noticed the slow-changing cultural views of both marriage and divorce, and he saw it as a threat to society.  

Theodore Roosevelt Engrossed in a Book (Per Usual)

President Theodore Roosevelt was so engrossed in Robert Grant’s novel, the romantic drama, The Undercurrent, that he wrote Grant about its characters saying, “If Constance does not marry Gordon my relationship with you will be seriously strained.” A few months later, after finishing the book, Roosevelt, with great emotional investment, wrote to Grant again: “Constance turned out like a brick and everything ended exactly as it ought to.” This was not the only time Roosevelt was completely entangled in one of Grant’s books. When reading another, Unleavened Bread, Roosevelt said, “I became so absorbed in it that I could not put it down until I finished it.” It wasn’t just the writing style itself or the storytelling that interested Roosevelt, but the themes and questions Grant evoked through his stories about divorce.  

Theodore Roosevelt Reading a book

Theodore Roosevelt and Author Robert Grant

Among the many authors and poets with whom Theodore Roosevelt maintained a relationship, this is one who stands apart from the rest for the most extensive paper trail of letters. Robert Grant was born in Boston, Massachusetts in 1852. He was a graduate of Harvard University and lived the rest of his life in Boston as a novelist and probate court judge. He met Theodore Roosevelt briefly when he was at law school, but really got to know him on a ocean voyage from New York to England. The grief-stricken young Roosevelt, who had just recently lost his wife and mother to death, was working on his first book, The Naval War of 1812. During their sea travel the two engaged in conversation and became reacquainted. Grant wrote, “there was fog and a menace of icebergs,” and he wrote that Roosevelt, while looking out the window of the boat at the ominous sea, expressed that “except for a wish to finish his history of our naval war of 1812, he would not care if he was lost at sea.”

These cold days at sea were the beginning of a lasting friendship and Roosevelt’s interest in Grant’s writings, to which he expressed a particular fondness. In one letter Roosevelt praised  Grant’s work, telling him he had “done real good in this country.” He wrote, “The first requisite for a book of any kind, must be that it’s interesting; and the things that are interesting must have the further quality of being useful. It is not every man, however, who can serve the double purpose; who can double arouse interest and give pleasure on the one hand, and on the other can make himself felt as one of the forces that tell for strength and decency in national life. It has been your good fortune to achieve success in both these ways.” 

Author Robert Grant Portrait Photograph

An Invitation to the White House

During the election of 1904 Roosevelt wrote to Grant: “When the election is over I want to have a chance of seeing you, not just for ten or fifteen minutes, but when I can go over at length with you some of the problems you touch upon in The Undercurrent.”  Later, in December of 1904 Roosevelt wrote Grant inviting him and his wife to attend the judiciary dinner at the White House, spend the night, and stay through lunch the next day. On more than one occasion Roosevelt wrote in letters how he wanted to discuss matters in Grant’s books with him. One of the themes most explored by the two was divorce which was the main theme in Grant’s novel, The Undercurrent. Both men were drawn to divorce’s effects on society and the legality and morality behind it. A term both men brought up in their correspondence was “easy divorce.” 

Easy Divorce

In the 19th century marriage was oftentimes a vehicle to gain property rights, move social classes, and establish a family. It was a choice and a commitment but oftentimes seen through a pragmatic lens of what works best for building a family. By the early 1900s, pragmatism in the matter was losing its edge, and a greater emphasis was put on romance as being the main reason to wed and lack of it a reason for divorce. Throughout the 1800s the divorce rate had increased three-fold. By 1880 there was one divorce for every 21 marriages; in 1900 there was one divorce for every twelve marriages. This was becoming a growing societal concern at the time and the subject of many editorials, sermons, and even government investigations. What Roosevelt and Grant referred to as “easy divorce” had a two -fold meaning. In one regard, as Grant explained in his writing, occurred when spouses were simply tired or bored of each other and would approach divorce flippantly. Roosevelt saw this particularly concerning among the wealthiest of Americans. He wrote, “It has been shocking to me to hear young girls about to get married calmly speculating how long it will be before they get a divorce.” 

In another regard, “easy divorce” referred to the ease with which a couple could divorce in certain states. Roosevelt wrote, “‘There is a wide-spread conviction that the divorce laws are dangerously lax and indifferently administered in some of the States, resulting in a diminishing regard for the sanctity of the marriage relation.”  He expressed that the effect of easy divorce had been “very bad” and that he did “unqualifiedly condemn” it. In certain states where divorce was not as “easily” achieved without fault or cause, some of the wealthiest and sly Americans achieved the staging of affairs. A man, or even the agreeing couple, wishing for a divorce, at the cost of his reputation, would hire a mistress and a photographer to provide “evidence” of adultery in a court of law to legalize a divorce. 

The Sanctity of Marriage 

As an upright family man and husband, Roosevelt wrote extensively about family life and the role of man and woman in marriage. His view of marriage was influenced heavily by his Christian faith. He wrote, “A man must think well before he marries. He must be a tender and considerate husband and realize that there is no other human being to whom he owes so much of love and regard and consideration as he does to the woman who with pain bears and with labor rears the children that are his.” 

In an address to the Inter-Church Conference he said, “Questions like the tariff and the currency are of literally no consequence whatsoever compared with the vital question of having the unit of our social life, the home, preserved. It is impossible to overstate the importance of the cause you represent. If the average husband and wife fulfill their duties toward one another and toward their children as Christianity teaches them, then we may rest absolutely assured that the other problems will solve themselves. But if we have solved every other problem in the wisest possible way it shall profit us nothing if we have lost our own national soul, and we will have lost it if we do not have the question of the relations of the family put upon the proper basis.” He called family “the very foundation of our social organization” and saw the threat of “easy divorce” upon it.  In one particular case of divorce, he called it “the worst form of anarchy.” 

The Threat of Socialism

Roosevelt was also ahead of his time, assessing the threat in America of growing socialism and Marxism, which hold as a tenant the deconstruction of the nuclear family. In his critique of socialism in his book, The Foes in Our Own Household, he addressed the socialist vision to abolish the institution of marriage and regulate child bearing at the governmental level, creating a “nation of fatherless children” and simple subjects of the state. Roosevelt warned that the socialist movement was an “attack on marriage and family,” and wrote,  “When home ties are loosened, when men and women cease to regard a worthy family life, with all its duties fully performed, and all its responsibilities lived up as the best life worth living, then evil days for the (nation) are at hand.” Roosevelt saw the sanctity of marriage and family as the building blocks of society and perhaps saw “easy divorce” as one of the first dominos to fall in this chain leading to the degradation of family and the nation at large. This led him to call for the authorization of the Director of the Census to collect and publish data on divorce rates and push for the National Congress on Uniform Divorce Laws in 1906. 

Theodore Roosevelt The Foes of Our Own Household Book

Shaping the Culture

Reading and social change at many times went together for Roosevelt. Although Roosevelt certainly did read for pleasure, Roosevelt’s interest and involvement in the literary world also was a means of facilitating the direction of national culture and identity. Roosevelt lifted up authors and poets who embraced traditional Judeo-Christian values and benefited the morale and moral character of the nation. He sought these writers out and often helped propel their careers through great encouragement, review, and also connecting them with publishers. In the 21st century we see how influential the entertainment media is on the life and culture of the nation. The novelists and poets of the 19th and early 20th century were the closest equivalent to the entertainment media and celebrity influence we have today. If Roosevelt could engage the writers of the time and press his influence on them, he would steer the direction of culture and the nation. 

Roosevelt in his autobiography famously quoted, “Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” In terms of influencing national culture, he was certainly doing this through his propping up of fellow authors, giving lengthy speeches on moral character, and writing his own books on moral topics: “Realizable Ideals”, “The Strenuous Life”, and “American Ideals.” With the cultural and moral concern at hand, and acknowledging the threat of socialism on the fabric of the nation, it is clear to see how “easy divorce” was a topic of great interest to Roosevelt. How did divorce fit in with American values? To what extent was it permissible? The legal aspects of divorce in Grant’s work were therefore of particular interest to Roosevelt as they brought to the forefront these questions.

The Poetry of Robert Grant 

Robert Grant regularly dealt with divorce as a probate judge, and although he used the theme of divorce in a few of his novels, he had explored other themes as well. He had written sixteen novels, a play, and an autobiography. Though he is not largely recognized as a poet, he did write a number of poems as well which appeared sparingly in different periodicals including Harper’s Weekly, Scribner’s Magazine, Metropolitan Magazine, as well as delivered at Harvard class reunions over a span of many years.

In 1926 he compiled a collection of his previously published and shared poems in a book he had privately printed called, Occasional Verses. He had only three hundred copies of the book printed and gave them as Christmas presents to family and friends. Among the known recipients are Howard Taft’s son, Henry W. Taft and Theodore Roosevelt’s sister, Corinne Roosevelt Robinson. Touched by the gesture and the years of friendship, Corinne Robinson penned a poem in dedication to Grant published in her book Out of Nymph. In it she illustrates the joy and fond memories she had of discussing poetry with Grant and her brother. She inscribed Grant’s copy: “For Judge Robert Grant, my old friend, my brother Theodore Roosevelt’s old friend with happy memories…” She concluded her poem with, “Thank you old friend, for to you I am beholden;— God bless that wakes memories golden!”  

Corinne Roosevelt Robinson
Corrine Roosevelt Robinson

Robert Grant offered a lasting friendship of joy and literary works of good humor but also stories of weightier matters which spurred Roosevelt on in his concerns about “easy divorce” in the nation. Below are two poems from Grant, one concerning the love for his wife, written for her on the occasion of their 25th anniversary in 1908 and another dealing with divorce as a probate judge, delivered at a dinner of the Bar Association of the County of Middlesex, Dec. 4, 1907. These poems are made available through Henry W. Taft’s original copy of Grant’s Book, Occasional Verses, pictured below: 

Taft’s copy of Grant’s Occasional Verses

If you enjoyed this piece you may enjoy reading more about Roosevelt’s values and ideals in his book Realizable Ideals and the Key to Success in Life or my book Theodore Roosevelt for the Holidays: Christmas and Thanksgiving with the Bull Moose.

The Story Behind Dollywood’s FireChaser Express

One of my biggest Insider tips that can really improve your experience in Dollywood, is to take the time to learn the backstories behind the prominent attractions. It takes the whole experience to the next level as you realize you are participating in a story. Right now there’s a lot of buzz surrounding Dollywood’s newest attraction: Big Bear Mountain. Deservingly so, but don’t let the excitement overshadow the other excellent coasters in Dollywood. I want to showcase here another one of my favorites, FireChaser Express, and enlighten you on the story surrounding this ride.

When you pass by this thrilling family coaster, you see it towering above Wilderness Pass and hear its own unique soundtrack. You hear the siren of the fire truck coaster bursting out of the station. If you’ve ridden it before, you remember its thrill, the exquisite view of the park from atop, and how after you think you may have completed the circuit, the coaster launches you backwards on the track to the fire station.

What all is going on here? Well, FireChaser Express is housed in Fire Station 7. Fire Chief Pete Embers is the character who oversees this station. You’ll see his desk at the station as you enter the line queue. You’ll see his hats, maps, books and a poster of Smokey the Bear, but you won’t see Chief Embers. He’s very busy and takes post at a fire lookout tower, keeping an eye out for fires in the Smoky Mountains.

Another character essential to this attraction is Crazy Charlie. He owns Crazy Charlie’s Gas and Fireworks Emporium. It’s quite a dangerous combination one may conclude. His name is befitting, as he is quite eccentric and a bit of a nuisance, always calling Chief Embers at Fire Station 7 to report on some perceived danger. He’ll smell something or suspect something when there’s never a real issue. He’s also always test-launching fireworks which end up littered all around Fire Station 7. Even some have landed on the roof of the Volunteer Supply (the attraction’s souvenir shop). Chief Embers has had enough of dealing with Crazy Charlie, but just as he’s about to wrap things up, he gets hold of a rumor that Crazy Charlie is working on a giant firework to break all his records called “Big Bertha.” This time there really might be a legitimate concern. 

Now, this is where you, the park guest enters. Chief Embers is looking for volunteer firefighters to serve in Fire Station 7 and keep an eye on Crazy Charlie. As a guest, or volunteer firefighter, as you board the coaster, or firetruck, you are on duty. You’ll hear in the station a call of emergency. Sirens will sound and Chief Embers will say, “This is not a drill”. The firetruck coaster will launch out of the station, zipping along Crazy Charlie’s firework testing zone. When you reach the top of the hill you will have arrived at Crazy Charlie’s Gas and Fireworks Emporium. Committed to safety, the coaster will take you and your fellow volunteer firefighters  into the store’s stockroom where you will see dozens of fireworks, and you’ll find the rumor is true! You’ll see the massive Big Bertha. After some back and forth you’ll hear Crazy Charlie say, “This doesn’t look good.” Birth Bertha is accidentally ignited, rocketing you out of the store, on your firetruck, backwards to the station. Or so the story goes… 

After learning this story, I was excited to ride this coaster again and really pay attention to the details. It made my experience all the more immersive. There are a lot of items and signs that relate to this story in the attraction. In addition to seeing Chief Ember’s desk, there also is a chalkboard on the wall in the station logging all of Crazy Charlie’s calls. In the line queue I took the time to look up at Crazy Charlie’s Gas and Fireworks Emporium and notice the gas pump, and the eccentricity of the place, which I never really noticed before. I also noticed there in the line queue, photos of all the firefighters on the wall including a photo of Chief Embers.

Apart from the items directly pertaining to the story, there are also a few other unique gems to point out. All throughout the line queue are vintage firefighting equipment. One of the most notable is a restored 1941 Ford fire truck. Just inside Fire Station 7’s main building one will find dozens of fire hoses dangling down. These are from real fire stations throughout Tennessee and are signed by real firemen. A plaque accompanies them, reading, “In honor of our local heroes…We salute the men and women who are always ready and willing to answer the call.”  These hoses are one of a few tributes to firefighters. At the entrance of the attraction is a statue of a firemen and a large plaque labeled “Saluting Our Firemen,” which is worth taking the time to read. As Dolly Parton explained at the ride’s grand opening in 2014, this ride seeks to honor everyday the brave service of firefighters. 

Next time you go to Dollywood, take the time to observe all these tributes, relics, and story elements. Board FireChaser Express with the mindset you are participating in the story of Pete Embers and Crazy Charlie. It also helps children who may have hesitancy to ride some of the more thrilling rides, to explain to them the story. Pretending, imagining and participating in the story can ease the nerves of the younger park guests and help them really enjoy the experience. 

So, what are you waiting for? Fire Station 7 is still looking for volunteer recruits! 

If you enjoyed this “Deep Dive” you may also enjoy my in-depth looks at Dollywood’s Mystery Mine here: 

Deep Dive into Dollywood’s Mystery Mine

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Ghosts and Gold: The Arrested Decay of Bodie and Your Life

I was up on the highlands early in the morning, pulling over to take a photo of the hundreds of sheep grazing in the pasture. I had never seen so many before.  It reminded me of John Muir’s summer in the Sierra as a shepherd. Maybe this was a familiar view he saw: little fleecy clouds grazing up and down the hillside and the sky a cloudless blue. I was on my way to a ghost town: Bodie State Historic Site. This one had been on the radar for a while. It is the ghost town of all ghost towns. I say this because of it being the largest intact ghost town, boasting over two hundred remaining structures. The citizens once claimed it was the largest city in California with a population of around 10,000, when it peaked in 1880. 

Today it is a thirteen mile drive off the highway to this ghosted metropolis in the heights. The last three miles were dirt and rock, and there was a car before me obstructing my view by spinning up clouds of dust. I was doing the same for the car behind me. I certainly wasn’t visiting this place alone like when visiting many of the other ghost towns throughout my travels. The dusty road finally curved around and spilled into a flat sandy parking lot. There were dozens of other cars. I popped my trunk to get my backpack and gear up for exploration. The car that had been trailing me pulled up beside me and a husband and wife stepped out. “That was quite a drive,” the man said.

“It sure was,” I agreed. Was he referring to the scenery of treeless pastures, the rocky road, or the hundreds of sheep? I didn’t know, but I appreciated his friendliness and no apparent resentment for the clouds of dust I sent billowing his way. 

I was enthralled when I stepped foot into the dusty streets of Bodie. It was more than I could have imagined, and by “more,” I mean it in the literal sense- so many structures and pathways to explore! The pictures of the place online were quite intriguing, but in reality this place was on the next level, and it was so quintessentially old Wild West. I felt as if I was upon some movie set or propelled back in time. However, the buildings were rightfully weathered by time telling me this was a rare relic of the past. 

 I was excited to explore it all, but as disciplined as I am in such matters, I first had to watch the park film. What did I learn? This was a place rich in multiple ways. It mined about $34 million in gold and silver in its time, adjusted to about $100 million today. It is also rich in the history and stories it holds. I felt one must spend a lot of time here to really get to know Bodie. I would only get to brush upon the knowledge of its rich history. 

I learned that the gold and silver mines in Bodie were once owned by the Standard Mining Company, and atypical of many other mining towns, the Standard Mining Company did not own the town. All the other businesses in town were private. When Bodie was booming, it even had its own town within its town. The influx of Chinese immigrants who worked on the railroad and in lumbering, to support the town, sought to keep their own customs and traditions in their own community within Bodie. Yes, this is a ghost town with a Chinatown that once had its own general store, saloon, and Taoist temple. I would learn many more interesting facts about Bodie later on a tour. But to set the scene, and frame things in context, Bodie went through many fluxes in population in part due to fires, assumed mineral depletion, and eventual unprofitability of the mines. It stayed alive until 1942, when the U.S. government’s War Production Board passed an order which shut down all non-essential gold mines in the country. Bodie’s last remaining mine was closed and mining never resumed. The Cain family, who owned much of the land, was conscious of its historical significance and hired a caretaker to look after the place in the 1940s, until they transferred it over to the state of California in 1962, after it was named a National Historic Landmark. 

I looked out. Streets intersected with streets everywhere. There were flat lanes, and hilly neighborhoods. All the buildings were in uniform, composed of dark vertical wooden boards. Out in the distance, forming the Bodie skyline, was the Standard Stamp Mill, which I would get to tour later.  

The first structure I saw entering Bodie was the Methodist church. It is perhaps the most iconic feature of the town despite it wearing the uniform dark wooden boards and not doing much to stick out. It was modest. Along with its simple gable roof were its triangular window peaks, short rising steeple, and protruding foyer. I learned that Bodie was booming for over a full year without a church. It was a lawless place. One of its ministers, Reverend F.M. Warrington, described it as “…a sea of sin, lashed by the tempest of lust and passion.” I can’t imagine how difficult it must have been to minister and feel a sense of obligation to a congregation in such a place.  

Traveling down the main streets, most of the buildings were closed and locked but I could go up to the windows and cup my hands around my eyes against the glass to peek in. Nearly every building was furnished. In the homes I saw tables and chairs, vanities, sewing machines, beds, rotten mattresses, wallpaper peeling off, canteens, and bottles and hats sitting about. One building was a pool hall, and the pool table still lay next to a furnace and a bar. One of the general stores was well stocked with just about everything you could imagine a general store to have back then, but everything was just about everywhere, in such a state of disarray and decay, that just that disorder and abandonment gave it a haunting sort of feel. 

Ghost towns are not named so because of the supernatural, but simply the term refers to a place that has been abandoned. However, seeing so many things so shamelessly abandoned and rotting away certainly gave me a sort of spooked aura. It was especially evident in one building with the way the light filtered in the window, dispersed through a laced curtain, and crept across the warped floorboard, casting natural shadows. If anyplace here was to be truly haunted, though, it would have to be the mortuary. It looked just like one of the many other houses, but I cupped my hands around my eyes and against the window to peek inside. A large coffin lay horizontal in the room, and up against the wall leaned two infant caskets. I felt something distinctly unique about being at a mortuary in a ghost town looking at infant coffins. Perhaps it was just a sure reminder of the fallen state of humanity. Here I was in a place left abandoned, rotting away, where life once lived, fixing eyes upon caskets, a reminder of the finite nature of our existence on this earth, and I was looking at infant caskets, symbolic of lives sadly taken prematurely. 

I did a bit more wandering myself, peeking in the windows of the school house, which was in near mint condition, and an old gas station with the oldest shell sign I’ve ever seen. I stopped for a moment at the old two story hotel which had me imagining people coming to this place and checking into a room. Why were they here? Was it for business or just visiting? Would they check into their rooms and then maybe head out on the street to find a place to have dinner or stir up ruckus in a saloon? What sort of men would wander over to “Virgin Alley”? This place once had a lot going on. Now its buildings were void of life and silent. 

After a bit of wandering, I went on a guided tour up to the Standard Stamp Mill. The ranger led a group of about fifteen of us up the dusty streets of Bodie. Before coming to the Mill we walked by the once home of Theodore Hoover, older brother of president Herbert Hoover. I was fascinated that this place had a connection with Herbert Hoover through his brother. I visited Herbert Hoover National Historic Site in Iowa the previous fall and learned all about him. It was there in the old quaker meeting house in the Herbert Hoover family’s village that I took time to ponder and reflect upon my last summer’s lesson to “be still, calm and quiet.” I love how in visiting National and State Parks, there are so many connections between people and events across the country. In the earlier days of our Republic, the people of influence had broad sweeping connections across the nation. One thing that happened here had another effect that happened there. These commonly occurring characters and connections help tie everything together and paint one grand story of the United States. 

 Once inside the Standard Mill we saw all the powerful mechanics, giant gears, and heavy equipment. The ranger explained the stamping process of this mill, how these giant stamps would literally crash down upon rocks and break the mineral deposits. Then a series of magnets and mesh beds would sort out the gold and silver. The most interesting thing the ranger shared with us here was how early employees in this mill were known for trying to steal gold from the mill. They would hide it in their pockets, so Theodore Hoover, who was manager of the mine, established uniform outfits- jumpsuits with no pockets. These thieving employees found other ways to steal, however. In the hot mine a man may stage a wiping of his brow or a hand comb through the hair, leaving behind gold dust to later be collected from his hair, eyebrows, or eye lashes. 

Here in the mine, the ranger also gave a super fascinating fact: In recent years, a Canadian mining company surveyed the land, finding about $2 trillion worth of gold still deposited in the hills around Bodie. The U.S. government stripped the mining permit from the Canadian company and now the state of California just sits on 2 trillion dollars of gold beneath its land. At first mention, I thought, California needs to mine that to pay off its debt, but the more I’ve thought about it, I’ve realized it’s better kept reserved, for I don’t think the California government is by any means fiscally responsible to handle such a sum of wealth.  

History and gold mining aside, I think there is a lot to learn from ghost towns about life. I’ve written about this before in my book, Canyonlands: My adventures in the National Parks and beautiful wild, but Bodie, I find, taught me something different. You see, the park ranger explained how Bodie was in a state of “arrested decay.” Meaning, the place is in a state of decay, but they are trying to arrest that decay, so nothing is to be changed, restored, revitalized, or repurposed. The place is simply to be arrested in its state of abandonment and decay. The only intervention is to occasionally add a support to a building to keep it standing. So, because of “arrested decay,” in every building dust is collected, walls are rotting, items are unprotected and weathered by age. Many of the buildings are even left messy inside. Old cans, cartridges, bottles, hats, and books lay about, left abandoned, in the same location, untouched for ages. This had me thinking about life. 

As we age, we are prone to find our own lives in a state of arrested decay. I look at all these physical objects left abandoned in Bodie and I see them as metaphors for the non-physical, but rather spiritual, things we have accumulated in life. We each have an array of experiences, stories, lessons learned, and passions which we have collected over the years. These are all valuable things, gained for many purposes. But I think, as we age, apathy has a way of arresting some of these things and causing us to abandon them despite their value. We no longer put them to use. We get old and we move past these things, and instead of seeking action and influence, we make excuses. But did you not have these experiences for a purpose, and did you not learn these lessons in life to share them? Did you not develop passion to let it stay dormant, collecting dust? Many have places in their lives that are in arrested decay, and it truly is a great loss. We need to exercise the abilities we’ve been given, nourish the passions that have been instilled, and share what we have learned in life to build up others. 

Dennis Rainey in his book Stepping Up: A call to courageous manhood, explains how, as we get older, we are fed a series of lies which rob us of the perception of our own value and worth. We rely on excuses which deem us irrelevant and rob us of our dignity. He talks about the final years of life as some of the most influential. It is here one has accumulated the most experience, wisdom, and lessons learned. All of these things are great riches to be passed on, but many men keep them to themselves. Rainey writes, “What an opportunity we have as we enter into the final years of life to use the wisdom and influence we’ve accumulated and reach out to the next generation.” He also goes on to say, “God created men not to rust out but to wear out as they stretch toward the finish line.” We are to be utilitarian with all we have been given, and, with age, our toolbelt is much more hardy than when we were younger. As written in Job 12:12, “Wisdom belongs to the aged, and understanding to the old.”

 I’d regret for anyone to cup their hands around your life and peek into your soul finding all the valuable spiritual things of life collected, laying abandoned. It’s not an easy question to ask but it is one Bodie beckons: Is your life but a ghost town in arrested decay? It doesn’t have to be. Take a look inside. What do you have there in your spiritual storeroom? What can you share? Think about it like this: You are not a state park but a city full of spiritual investments. There are no ghost towns in the kingdom of God, so dust yourself off and get on with life! 

And also, maybe like in Bodie, there’s so much more treasure still to be mined from life. Don’t just sit on it. Fire up the stamp mill!

Read the previous “episode” Manzanar and the Questions it Raises for Today

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Manzanar and the Questions it Raises for Today

The drive up and out of Death Valley to the west is perhaps the most harrowing drive I have ever been on. The narrow road hugs sheer cliffs, and at times with no guard rail, leaving not even an inch to mechanical error. The road is windy and bends quickly and dramatically, and on the opposite side of the road from the cliffs are the hard rock faces of the Panamint Mountains, stern, not the least bit comforting. There better not be a car coming from the other direction, because I doubt we could both round the curve at the same time successfully. 

Everything was sandy beige, rocky, and dry. Before I climbed this mountain in my vehicle, I was driving across the long low flats of Death Valley. The road zips across the desert of barren rocks, shrubs, and occasional salt flats. This area is nicknamed the “Devil’s Golf Course.” The road then gradually ascends the base of the mountains, where it takes on another character. There in the valley, beginning this drive, one can see an enormously long stretch of road. It doesn’t fade from view in the distance, but you see it traversing the full route of the valley perfectly straight and then finally, just barely, it escapes into the mountains, like the mining bandits of old bee-lining and then hiding out in the heights. 

Up here in the mountains, my hands were tight on the steering wheel and my moves well calculated. Every once in a while I would steal a glance to the right and see the immensity of Death Valley now way down below me, its white salt flats now so prominent. Just the sight of it looked piping hot and desolate, and for a moment I wondered how I survived down there.

I’ve often told people the mountains surrounding Death Valley are some of the most impressive and enormous. It’s not that they are the tallest in our nation, but when you view some of the nation’s tallest mountains in the lower 48 states, in places like Washington and Colorado, you’re already viewing them from thousands of feet above sea level. In Death Valley the mountains stand much taller because you see them from a starting point of 200 feet below sea level Thus you see much more mountain, and they are breathtakingly enormous. 

Driving these curvy mountainous roads, I was reminded of the old Wile E. Coyote and Road Runner cartoons, where the Coyote is running so fast, trying to chase the Road Runner, but then runs off the cliffside and only falls when he eventually notices there is no more road underneath him. I felt like if I wasn’t careful, I’d find myself right off the cliff just like Wile E. Coyote. 

There was a great deal of relief after I made it up and over the Panamint Mountains and slithered between the Inyo Mountain range, finding myself now in another valley- the Owens Valley. Now I could rest and take a breath at around 3,700 feet. Here there was the comfort from natural greenery and wide open flat spaces. To my right I could see the dry desolate brown peaks of the Inyo and Panamint Mountains which border Death Valley and to my left stood the tall snowcapped, pine-ladened, granite peaks of the Sierra Nevada. It is a place of wild contrast, with mountains of such different character on either side in prime view.

The road up here definitely had me wide-awake this early morning, but now in the quiet, tranquil valley my mind could rest again, and I could gracefully, and mindlessly, zoom across the road. Not far in my journey I saw a sign that immediately grabbed my attention: Manzanar National Historic Site. This was a unit of the National Park Service. I had seen it on my map. In 2016 the National Park Service, in honor of their centennial, released a free pamphlet map of the United States with every national park unit listed. I had seen Manzanar on the map but hadn’t figured that it was actually en route. Knowing little about it, I was still excited to visit, learn, and check it off my list. 

I pulled into the parking lot, and no one else was here. I had gotten such an early start down in Death Valley that It was now only 8:00am, and I had an hour before the visitor center and museum would open. I walked up to the door and found a slot full of park maps and brochures. Almost as important as watching the park film is reading the park brochure. Because I couldn’t go inside and watch the film, I went back to my car to read the brochure. Later I would get to watch the film and tour the museum.  What did I learn? In simplified terms, during World War II Manzanar was a war relocation camp for Japanese-Americans. There was a broad distrust in the U.S. of those of Japanese ancestry, especially following the bombing of Pearl Harbor on December 7th, 1941. There was suspicion of who was a spy or secret operative of the Japanese government, and Democrat president Franklin D. Roosevelt, acting out of caution for “public safety,” signed Executive Order 9066, which enabled Lieutenant John L Dewitt of the U.S. Army to use the military to remove everyone of Japanese ancestry from the West Coast. Dewitt said, “you can’t tell one Jap from another…They all look the same…A Jap’s a Jap.” Describing the incarcerated Japanese-Americans, the National Park Service in its brochure states, “They were from cities and farms, young and old, rich and poor. They had only days or weeks to prepare. Businesses closed, classrooms emptied, families and friends separated. Ultimately the government deprived over 120,000 people of their freedom.” Manzanar held 10,000 of these people. 

To me this seemed like such a tragedy and stain on American history- a grave mistake or perhaps a willful wrong. I looked across the camp, the Sierra Nevadas stood tall and magnificent behind the camp, dramatically rising up from this dry valley. This was a beautiful place, but to think a place of such beauty was also a place where people were so wrongfully deprived of their freedoms was quite the combination. Something so good was contrasted with something so wrong. It was a place where beauty was paired with melancholy. 

I began walking down the pathways. Manzanar was organized into 36 blocks, each once holding about 16 barracks. Now only a few restored barracks remained. Nearly all the structures were gone, but looking at the map, tucked between some barracks once were communal spaces. There were mess halls, a theater, high school, elementary school, catholic church, protestant church, Buddist church, baseball field, hospital, park, and orchard. I walked around with a sort of sacred reverence for this place. This was a place where human freedom was taken, where people really grappled with life, living, and its meaning. It was a place where people suffered and sought purpose, or lost purpose, in confinement. It was also a place where people sought faith to see them through. With such things in play, this was ground zero of a spiritual battle zone. I could feel it. I could sense it, and it wasn’t all bad. It wasn’t oppressive. There was both physical and spiritual beauty here. 

I came to what was labeled Merritt Park on the map. Here were the small decorative dried up pond basins, riverways, and bridges which once helped compose beautiful Japanese gardens. I saw some pictures on the interpretive plaques of this place back in the early 1940s. The incarcerated constructed these gardens. I paused in contemplative surprise. Why bother? I thought. You’ve lost your freedom, you’ve lost everything you had, yet in the midst of a place of such oppression and darkness you’ve chosen to make something so beautiful? It was once so beautiful that even famous photographer Ansel Adams, made a trip to Manzanar to photograph these gardens. 

Throughout my wandering of the camp, I also learned how the incarcerated organized community events, such as community dances, plays, and sporting events. They also planted and harvested crops in the orchard and attended church and school. There was a very distinct beauty to be seen here. Despite their circumstances, many of these people chose to live their lives to fullest, making the most of their given situations. And that was inspiring. To lose so much but to carry on living, exhibits a great and inspiring fortitude. 

I came to the back of the grounds, the edge of the map, and there were a few flat headstones on the ground marking graves of people who had passed away in the camp and one tall standing obelisk monument inscribed with Japanese Kanji characters reading “soul consoling tower.” The National Park Service states, “today the monument is a focal point of the annual pilgrimage, serving as a symbol of solace and hope.” This area was ladened with paper cranes- a Japanese symbol of peace, hope, love, and healing in troubled times. There was a Japanese lady kneeling down by the headstones, leaving either paper cranes or flowers herself. I do not know if there is a certain season or pilgrimage which calls for these paper cranes, or if it was a routine gesture.  

I eventually made my way back to the visitor center. I toured the museum full of photos and artifacts and watched the park film. It struck me as quite interesting that these people were not forced into this camp. They came willingly without any sort of Due Process. They were convinced it would be a place of safety and security and something they needed to do as a duty to their country. Video footage showed people giddily boarding trains, ready to come to this camp. I think these people were grossly misled, but I also found their sense of loyalty to their country quite profound. I gathered that their coming here was realized to be a sacrifice for a greater good. Some saw themselves as taking one for the team. At the time I thought, what patriotism! Later, as I reflected upon this, I wouldn’t find it quite as patriotic but rather concerning that these people so blindly followed their government. But, also, in regard to patriotism, I saw a photo and read of the students in camp pledging allegiance to the flag of the United States. The incarcerated children would do this every morning. Despite their situation, these people believed in the principles of America, what it stood for. Even if they were being deprived of the American values in the moment, they still believed in them, and did not abandon them nor their allegiance to them. 

What I learned and saw at Manzanar would roominate in my mind for quite some time. Reflecting on what I saw, I have been reminded of how important history is to the present. Learning about what we have done as a nation, and considering the motives behind our actions, can help us immensely in our decision making and discernment in the present and future. 

 It’s quite important to note that the removal of all these people, which included the closings of their business, the loss of their homes, their isolation and ejection from society, was all done in the name of “public safety.” Those exact words were uttered by our leaders. Certainly all Japanese-Americans were not infected with disloyalty to their country. Not all Japanese-Americans were spies, but just to play it safe, a blanketed act of repression was spread out among a whole population. It’s become evident throughout history that it’s easy for people to abandon their moral conscience and fall in line of obedience when it comes to matters of safety. “Whatever you say, I will do,” can easily become a mentality towards the government when the term “safety” is thrown around. In my own lifetime I’ve seen safety propped up, become a deeply ingrained value, and then elevated to an idol status. Creation and destruction is conducted in its name. A family’s need to put food on the table, to keep the business running, to pay the mortgage, or even to see each other across state and national lines, has in recent times become irrelevant, frivolous, trivial in comparison to the greatness of the idol of safety. Safety is a carnivorous beast demanding much sacrifice. I am not advocating recklessness, being safe to a measure is wise, but there is a great distinction from exercising safety with prudence versus idolizing safety to a god-like status that dictates all of one’s actions. 

These Japanese-American’s  gave up their freedoms and came to these camps willfully in the name of “public safety” in an unquestionable trust in the government. One may look back and think these people were just naive and assume the government would never do something like that today. I would not be so quick to jump to such conclusions. I think people and governments have the same faults in character and the same potential for corruption as they always have had. What is different today, however, is that we are informed by the past to think more critically of the present and future. We all need to question the sacrifices we make to “public safety,” and to other idols in our government and society. As we do we will be faced with moral questions of what is right and what is wrong. It is easier to not grapple with such philosophical questions and to just go along. It is also more natural to want to be taken care of, giving up freedom little by little to the god of “public safety,” than to take lead and be free. Freedom is gutsy. It takes toiling through hard questions and taking action backed by principles, even when it goes against the grain of society.  

Some, in the study of history, may conclude these relocation camps were needed, that they served their purpose in isolating and deactivating Japanese spies, and the sacrifice of some was worth it for the greater good. I can respect that opinion, and likely there is evidence to it’s favor, but I still find the whole incarceration of innocent people to be a moral wrong. However, if one is strongly convinced in their conclusion that this all was ultimately good in the grand scope of things, I ask him or her to fully own it and attribute it to its source. Give credit where credit is due. The incarceration of all these Japanese-Americans was not a pure American act, for it does not align with American principles or values at all, including equality, freedom, and Due Process. Rather it was an act of the Democrat party and thus needs to be filed next to the other accolades of members of the Democrat party, including the prolongation of slavery, and the creation of the Klu Klux Klan and the Jim Crow Laws.

Another thought I’ve had as I’ve reflected on Manzanar is related to the press. It’s evident that racism towards the Japanese was prevalent in the times leading up to Executive Order 9066. Photos and artifacts clearly demonstrate this. However, most of these artifacts are out of the press. I find it particularly telling that this racism was propagated, perhaps even created on a large scale, by the press. All this racism doubtfully seems organic, like it just sprang up in the varying communities throughout the Nation. I find it hard to believe. It is more believable that it was sold, planted, and propagated by the news media. Read the newspaper headlines of the time. It was clearly an agenda, and this all served the government’s purpose. The press was and is a tool of the government, which makes me question, was there really a sweeping racism in the United States towards Japanese, or was that the narrative of the press? or did the press exploit existing racism for greater division to achieve the government’s goals? This all leads me to my next questions for our present time: What messages are the press trying to instill in us today? and What agenda ,present or future, might these messages align with? If we can train ourselves to routinely ask this question and be skeptical of the purposes of the media, we won’t be so blindly manipulated and divided for political purposes. 

Eventually two Republican presidents sought to address this wrong committed by our country. Ronald Reagan signed the Civil Liberties Act of 1988, giving an apology and financial reparation for those who had been detained in these camps. This was my first time ever learning about such a concept as a government reparation. Later, George H. W. Bush amended this act to ensure every case was addressed and again gave another apology on behalf of the U.S. government. 

Ultimately Manzanar National Historic Site taught me that the corruption we see in our government and news media is not entirely new. We’ve been down this road before. We must question our government and media. And equally important, let us wake up and realize that when we pledge allegiance to the United States of America, as the schoolchildren did in Manzanar, we should not be pledging blind allegiance to the government, but rather an allegiance to the principles that constitute America and an allegiance to our fellow Americans.

Manzanar is a scar on American history, but it can teach us much. Let’s not lose sight of our history- the good and the bad. 

Before I left Manzanar, I toured the simple barracks and took a few photos. Some barracks had beds lined up one after another in a military fort alignment. Other barracks housed small family-style apartments. I thought about getting a book in the visitor center to read more about life in Manzanar, because this history intrigued me, but I knew I wouldn’t be dwelling  too much on this chapter of American history during my trip. I would be moving on to another. Next stop was further back in time to the era of  the California Gold rush as I would visit Bodie, a mining town, turned ghost town and then a state historic site.

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The Story Behind Dollywood’s Mystery Mine

The Intrigue of the Mystery Mine:

I finally mustered up enough courage to ride the Mystery Mine at Dollywood. Walking by it, and seeing the mine carts dash out of the old themed abandoned coal mine and loop and twist upside down, made me queasy at just the sight. I admit I like my coasters on the tamer side, but the Mystery Mine would surprise me and become one of my favorite attractions in the park. 

It was opening day in March of this year. The night before a surprise snow blanketed the region. It was mostly melted now, except for white clinging onto the trees in the shaded divots of these Smoky Mountain foothills.

Seemingly one-by-one, coasters warmed up and started to make their runs. Just as the snow surprisingly fell the night before, today for some strange reason, my reluctancy had melted away and the desire to ride the Mystery Mine suddenly came upon me. 

Despite the fear that always gripped me, the attraction had intrigued me for a while. It is a prominent feature in the park, towering over Timber Canyon in its own dark ominous way, and the inside portion of the ride was always unknown and mysterious to me. Numerous times, outside the attraction, I had walked by the animatronic vulture which tells stories and warns of the dangers inside the Mystery Mine. It must be quite an attraction to have such a feature next to its entrance, I thought.  No other Dollywood ride has this. 

As I waited in the queue line with my friends, we were doing some serious people watching from the rocky platforms which lead up to the ride. I also noticed the old rustic signs and fictitious newspaper articles posted along the walls recounting tragedies in the mine long ago and the condemnation of the now abandoned mine. An announcement about keeping your boots on and not losing them made my friends and I laugh, because we had just all bought cowboy boots the evening before in Pigeon Forge and talked about wearing them to the park but quickly decided they were not quite practical for the occasion.

Nervously, I boarded the minecart with my friends. One of the first things that stuck out to me was a canary in a small cage falling from its perch to the bottom of its cage. I remember going on a tour of an old abandoned coal mine in Alberta, Canada and learning about how miners would hang up canaries in cages throughout the mine. If a canary stopped singing and dropped from its perch, it was a sign that miners needed to evacuate as the air was becoming noxious from mine gas. This is smart theming, I thought. Someone knew this small detail to include it in the mine. As the ride progressed, there were a few other themed moments that stuck out to me, including those with vultures, a lightning storm and dynamite. 

I was intrigued by these clues. There obviously was a story going on, and I wanted to know the full story. Between the animatronic vulture, the signs and newspaper articles posted outside and the elements within, there was some real thought going on behind all this, but I couldn’t quite piece it all together. I decided it was time to investigate. 

The Story of Old Grandpa Jack:

I started my quest by studying point-of-view videos of the ride online, then watching all the videos and studying the animatronic vulture out front. I gathered the story of Old Grandpa Jack told by the vulture. He was a trapper who lived in a cave in the Smoky Mountains. As folklore goes, you’re not supposed to whistle in a cave, because its vibrations can cause rocks to shift, but Grandpa Jack whistled in his cave causing the earth to tremble and the ground to open up revealing an abandoned mine. Then Grandpa Jack wandered in the cave never to return. Because of this legend, the Mystery Mine also informally became known as the “Whistle Mine.” Despite its colloquial name, guests of the attraction know it’s formally the unlucky Mine 13. Just as your ride in the Mystery Mine begins, you hear a heinous life. Could it be the ghost of Grandpa Jack?

Wrong Way Joe:

Another character related to the mine, or at least to the themed area of the attraction is Wong Way Joe. The vulture outside the ride, recounts his story: “Back in the logging days, it was Joey’s job to determine the natural lean of a tree so they would know exactly where it would fall. Well, Joe had a knack for doing things the wrong way. So if Joe called the tree in one direction, ya’ll could stand in that same spot and live to tell about it. Some say a huge tree nearly fell on the potato shack, but Joe, with the help of his head, broke the fall. Ever since then, Joe has been twenty mules short of a mule team. If Joe ever spoke his mind he’d be speechless. Truth be told, Joe has been doing things the wrong way ever since he has been knee-high to a bark beetle.” 

What does twenty mules short of a mule team mean? In the mining days of old, what was referred to as a twenty-mule team, was actually composed of eighteen mules and two horses. If Wrong Way Joe was twenty mules short of eighteen mules, he was certainly in bad shape, and bad luck must permeate from this mine.  

Mine Superstitions:

In my quest for more information about the Mystery Mine and to see how all these pieces tie together, during the Dollywood Influencer week, I was able to meet with Pete Owens, vice president of marketing and public relations at Dollywood. I was told he was the man that would provide the answers. He explained that Dollywood “does not do scary,” but that it does entertain mystery and superstition, and the Mystery Mine is themed after traditional mine superstitions. According to mining lore, there are three great superstitions related to mines:

  1. Never take your boots off in a mine. It’s bad luck, for there’s only one way a man comes out of a mine without boots. Mr. Owens went on to explain that at one part in the ride, if you look carefully, you’ll see boots hanging in the mine. Also, this makes sense in the queue line when we are warned to keep our boots on.
  2. Don’t whistle in a mine. This can bring about danger. We hear the warning not to whistle in the mystery mine in the theme song that plays in the line queue: “Don’t whistle in the Mystery Mine or danger you will meet.” This brings us back to the story of Old Grandpa Jack. As a park guest, you should be warned, as whistling is also heard accompanying the music of the ride.  
  3. Birds in a mine are bad luck. This explains all the vultures and ravens in and surrounding the mine. The one exception is you want your canaries with you in the cave, but if they drop dead or pass out, you better get out fast. Guests are warned “If the canary ain’t tweetin’, you’ll be sleepin’.”

Mr. Owens went on to explain that each lift and drop in the ride is related to one of these bad omens. At the beginning of the ride, you see the red beady eyes of vultures and ravens, at the second lift you see the canary dropping dead in its cage, and the third lift is where you find the boots hanging. All of these bad omens foreshadow the danger which is to come— the storm, in which lightning strikes the mine, which causes the mine shaft tower to collapse and the  dynamite to ignite, exploding, and blasting you out of the cave in your mining cart.

I was fascinated by this theming. It was very smart, based off of real historic mine superstitions, and it fits perfectly with Dollywood’s larger Appalachian theme. 

The Mystery Mine Movie:

Perhaps the most interesting tidbit Mr. Owens shared with me was that in 2006, to promote the forthcoming Mystery Mine, Dollywood employees produced a short film explaining the backstory of the Mystery Mine. It was uploaded to YouTube in five short segments. It features a young brother and sister happening upon the mine and finding a man in the forest that tells them about the mine’s mysterious past. “Is it still there on Youtube?” I asked. 

“Oh I’m sure it is.” Both Mr. Owens and I got out our phones while standing there in Dollywood searching for these promo videos. In my ignorance, I was searching on the official Dollywood YouTube page. “You won’t find it there,” Mr. Owens explained. Deep in the tunnels of Youtube we mined out these old gems. He said they filmed it all in one evening, that the girl in the video was his own daughter and all the small cast were regular Dollywood employees and relatives. As I watched and saw all I learned come to life.

Other Fun Mystery Mine Facts:

In my talking with Mr. Owens and my own investigation, I learned quite a few other interesting facts about the Mystery Mine: 

  • At the time of its opening, it was the first coaster with a complete vertical lift and beyond vertical 95 degree drop.
  • The Mystery Mine theme song was written by a composer who has written songs for another well known theme park and entertainment company.
  • At its time of construction, Mystery Mine was Dollywood’s single biggest investment in the park at $17.5 million.
  • Mystery Mine is award winning. It gained the title of Best New Theme Park Attraction in 2007 by Theme Park Insider and gained second place the same year from Amusement Today.
  • Mystery Mine went under some refurbishment in 2021, receiving some new track. 
  • During its first year in operation, the vulture out front was voiced live and could interact personally and in real-time with the guests. There also was Old Grandpa Jack there. Jack was eventually removed and the vulture was later switched to a recording. 
  • The Mystery Mine is manufactured by Gerstlauer, a German rollercoaster company, known for rides in many well-known parks. 

Insider Tips:

Now that you know the story, and hopefully I’ve built up your curiosity of the ride, here are a few practical insider tips for your visit:

  • This is one of those rides that can have a long wait time, or no wait time at all. It fluctuates greatly at different times during the day. So if it’s crowded, just check back later.
  • In my opinion it has some of the best t-shirts and themed merchandise in the park. Check them out!
  • This ride is thrilling, but it’s not too much. I don’t like to go upside-down on my rollercoasters, but trust me, this one is not bad. Don’t be scared. Just keep your boots on… and don’t whistle…and watch out for those vultures! 
  • If you are on a vacation in the Southeast, and are interested in the mining theme, consider checking out the real coal mines tucked away in the beautiful natural parks of the Big South Fork National River and Recreation Area in Kentucky and the New River Gorge National Park in West Virginia.

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The Colors of My Sunset

My spirit sighed in relief, accomplishment, and comfort. It had been a full day of adventuring, and now I was done for the day. I finished setting up camp, getting my car reorganized, equipping my tent with what I needed for the night, and putting on sweatpants and loose comfortable layers for the evening. Everything that needed to be done was done, and now I could soak in the beauty around me. My feet rejoiced as I forced off my hiking boots and slid my feet into my warm soft sandals which had been baking all day in the heat of the car. It was time to quiet my soul and be wholly present in the natural beauty around me, relinquishing action for the comforting silence of creation. 

I sat on top the picnic table at my campsite to look out upon Lake Tahoe on the most eastern edges of California. I had lucked out and scored a campsite just atop the rounded slope that spilled down into Emerald Bay. Just days prior I was in the heat and desolation of the Mojave desert and its Death Valley. Although it has its own appeal, it was now so comforting to be aside water, in an air that grew increasingly cool with each passing minute. I felt like I had really arrived somewhere and felt accomplished for again having survived the harshness of the desert. 

I took a deep breath of the cool pine-filled air with the knowledge and awareness that I didn’t deserve any of this, yet it was lavished upon me. The most striking and comforting feature of the moment was the sunset my eyes beheld. The sun had dipped behind the piney bluffs sending an arsenal of colors: warm oranges, vibrant pinks, rich purples and blues, to jab into the soul and evoke awe. 

By this point, in all my travels and wanderings, I had pondered and written quite a bit about natural beauty and the spiritual truths hidden within. Features and phenomenons in nature, although they serve their own selfish purposes, also are symbolic and reveal truths about God and man. I had come to adopt a philosophy summed up in a phrase that repeated in my mind: “beauty is never wasted,” meaning that behind every beautiful feature or event in nature there is a message God planted to be found. It was all intentional. 

So here I sat in front of a rich sunset above an angelic lake, framed by dark sweet pines. I’ve learned a lot from streams and rivers. The moon and sky tell truth, the rainbow holds promise, and even a majestic tree speaks power. What is the meaning behind a sunset? Such beauty is so exquisitely extravagant, it must hold a powerful and prized message. Its display is so moving. I began to think of how some things are universally beautiful. Many differ in opinion, but I do believe beauty is objective. I have never met someone who would deny the beauty of a sunset. It’s these things which are universally beautiful that are all the more compelling to me in that they carry a message. 

I had to pause and start at surface level. A sunset marks the ending of a day, the closure, the wrapping up. If I were to relate that to human life, well the closure and wrapping up of life is death. But death? Really? Death has so often a negative connotation, and a sunset is beautiful. Does a sunset, something so beautiful, really hold a message about death? Two summers prior I had lost my Grandpa Hodge. It was his time to die. It was his sunset. He was the first family member I lost as an adult, and, at that time, I was thinking of how death, although often viewed as a loss, is really the completion of something. It is the race fully finished. If you live a life in accordance with God’s will, everything that you were meant to do in life, all your purpose, your calling, is complete at death. It is the most glorious of accomplishments! It is the most relieving, freeing, and beautiful of things. There are no more questions to be had, no more searching for purpose, no more toil and pain. There is a richness and completeness. The beauty of a life fully and rightly lived coming to its closure can parallel both the melancholy and celebratory beauty of a sunset.  

Then I started thinking of the different colors of the sunset. Why does a sunset have an array of colors? What is the purpose behind this? Why are some sunsets more beautiful than others? Why do some have more colors than others, and how come sometimes we can’t see the sunset? 

I started attributing the colors of the sunset to the overarching qualities of a person’s life. When a life comes to an end, we can see the summation of a person. We can look at a life in its entirety and identify the qualities that person beheld. As a sunset can be rich in red, orange, pink, blue, purple, so a man’s sunset can be marked by his own colors, whether it be kindness, generosity, love, bravery… When a life comes to an end, and we reflect upon the person, these attributes become brightly evident on display. 

Some sunsets are more monotone, as some lives are marked by one outstanding attribute or quality. Other, perhaps more beautiful sunsets, are marked by many colors. Many attributes are on display for the lives appealed and touched a multitude of people in a multitude of ways. Then, there are the sunsets that, well, aren’t. We don’t see a beautiful display. Instead there are clouds or storms. There is no beauty to be seen, but just a gradual fading into abysmal darkness. This is the life not rightly lived, the life pursued apart from God. The life that lacked forgiveness; the life that turned cold; the one that was troubled and overcast by its own selfish ambition; the one in which goodness did not take root; and there, in that, death is not a completion nor fullness. There is no beauty to be seen. The palette is dismal and downcast.

When it is my time to go, or to put it frankly, when I die, what will be the colors of my sunset? Will there be a richness and beauty on display? Will my life be complete? Yes, through God’s grace, I will work to make it so. But if I were to pass today, what would my sunset look like? What qualities will summate my life? 

At this point in my musings, my mind was on fire and delighted by the richness of thought. I was inspired. I broke open my journal. I could make a list of favorable qualities and consider the evidences in my life that point to each. I wanted to pause and consider the colors of my sunset. I began to think of positive qualities, and then my mind was steered to scripture: Galatians 5:22-23 says “The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control.” Perhaps these were the things exhibitable in life, things worth nurturing, the ingredients of the most spectacular and beautiful of sunsets. I realized that   in these nine things which constitute “the fruit of the Spirit,” all other good qualities stem. From Love we get self-sacrifice, endurance, forgiveness, trust, humility, and bravery. In Joy we find happiness, charm, and hope. In Peace we find resolve, resilience, calmness, comfort, acceptance, security, confidence, and unity. In Patience there is perseverance, maturity, and knowledge. In Kindness there is selflessness, consideration, giving, charity, and thoughtfulness. In Goodness there is integrity and trustworthiness. In Faithfulness there is loyalty, bravery, and the unwavering. In Gentleness there is calm, patience,  even-temperament, nurturing, and respect. In Self-Control there is wisdom, intention, and perspective. All of these constitute beauty. 

If my sun were to set, in all honest and sincere reflection, I think my colors on display would be honesty, integrity, trustworthiness, bravery, comfort, resilience, and intention. These are the positive qualities I most identify with. I do not share this to boast. After all, these all come from the fruit of the Spirit. They are found under the umbrella qualities of love, peace, goodness, and faithfulness. And these are not products of my own being. They are from the Spirit of God, which is a gift. In identifying these colors of my sunset, I’ve also come to find that I am lacking in the display of others. I want my sunset to display the full array of colors, and what I most need to work on is nurturing more joy and kindness in my life. My life can at times be plagued by pessimism, unjustified negativity, and unrighteous reflexive acts of self-preservation.  

Through this reflection, I was very much intrigued to read up and study the “fruit of the Spirit.” When my travels were over and I was home, I did just that. To my surprise I realized these nine things were packaged together in a singular Spirit. There are not separate fruits. They come together. The singular word “fruit” is used with the singular indicative verb of “is,” not “are”. The spirit of God, living in his people, endows us with all these qualities as one gift. They don’t need to be planted or harvested individually. They are in every redeemed believer, at our disposal to employ in our lives, to transform this world and point others to Christ. The only thing that keeps some attributes from being more apparent than others in my own life, is my own faulty human nature. As Jesus says in Luke 9:23, we have to “deny” ourselves daily and follow him. Then the Spirit of God can really shine through, bringing fruit to life and eventually color to sunset. 

When I consider the colors of my sunset and become preoccupied with all that would entail, I am not just thinking of a display. I am not here thinking of just how I want people to be thinking about me upon my passing. That is missing the point. As we reflect upon the colors of our sunsets, it is really a time to take moral inventory, to examine our lives and see if they align with all the potential we have in the Spirit of God. Then, as we are more aware, we can take action steps to remove more of our selfish being, to weed out the clutter and clean the storeroom of our lives, to allow more colors to shine through in our life and become evident in our sunsets. This is achievable only through an active relationship with God and ceaseless pursuit of Him. These attributes, these colors, don’t develop individually or by our own will. Rather, quite contrary, and astounding, they become bright and richer the more we know and yield to God. The more we come to know God, the more He will be made known in our lives, evident in the fruit throughout. Thus, when the time has come, and our mortal life is passing, there too, beauty can be found in the colors of our sunsets. 

There aside Lake Tahoe, as all the color faded in the night sky, the sunset complete, I zipped up my tent, shimmied into my sleeping bag, and rested my head on my pillow. It is true, I said to myself, beauty is never wasted.

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Meeting Susan: A Kindred Spirit

I know this lady, I said to myself but my mind needed a moment to place her. “Is it you?” I questioned.

“Is it you?” she returned the question with a rather stunned expression.

“Susan?” At this point I knew it was her, and I was utterly surprised. I knew there was purpose in coming here for breakfast after all. Waking up in my tent, I was debating whether to just hit the road or seek breakfast here at Red Meadow, the small village in the Inyo National Forest, adjoining Devil’s Postpile National Monument. After much back and forth, I decided to take the short drive from my campground to the Mule House Cafe. Here in the village I noticed a little general store, cabins, showers, a lot of backpackers from the Pacific Crest Trail, and the Cafe. 

I opened the door on the small cabin of a restaurant, and immediately I was greeted with this familiar face, but it was only familiar from the internet. In real life, face-to-face, it was all new. Susan was one of my most devoted social media followers. She, whether she knew it or not, had been a great encouragement to me as a writer. 

In the Spring of 2017 I decided to start sharing my adventures in the National Parks and the beautiful wild in a blog online. I took matters quite seriously and strategically at the time. I created blog entries regularly. The earliest of ambitions was to post every day. I shared my writing not only on my pages but I joined the largest National Park and hiking fan groups online. I considered these my networks that “aired” my “episodes.” My posts would always need to be approved by administrators of the groups, and they always were, up until winter 2020 when the administrator of the largest group of hiking enthusiasts banned me from their group. Perhaps it was something I said in my writing that the administrator took issue with, among my open, honest recollections on the trails involving both the physical and the spiritual. It was also very popular at the time, and remains quite common today, for people of certain ideologies, who assume power, to silence opposing viewpoints and completely reject and attempt to isolate those whom differ.

Despite the unfortunate event of being banned from this group, it is here I came in contact with Susan, a fellow group member.  She would always read and comment on things I posted, and not just on the group page, but on the other snippets of thought I shared on my own personal pages. We were very different yet at the same time so much alike. For starters, I am young enough to be Susan’s son. A substantial age gap lies between us. We grew up in different times and different places. She has experienced a lot more out of life than I. Although I had not yet met her until this moment, I had such high esteem for her and there seemed to be a distinct connection between us that would take some time and study to understand fully. 

Susan was my waitress in this little Mule House Cafe in the Red Meadow village. We shared our pleasantries and surprise and she led me over to the counter on the far end of the small cafe. The term “far” is gracious for it was quite a little place. There I sat on one of the brown leather backed stools that swiveled, and I rested my elbows up on the shiny faux wooden counter. Before me stood a wood paneled wall with a shelf of cups, a clock, a few framed photographs of mountain vistas, and taxidermied heads of a buck and black bear. 

It was such a surprise to meet Susan here for more than one reason. I knew she was living in rural middle Nevada, so I was by no means even considering she would be here.  Despite that, she had also been on my mind recently, for as I was planning my trip I was thinking that if I ever were to drive across Nevada again, I would want to stop and meet her. 

Why did such a gal, that one would perceive so different than I, command so much thought from me? The simple answer is that it was Susan’s authenticity, but let me explain further. We had messaged a bit back and forth and found we shared some great things in common, our Faith in God, our belief in the power of prayer, our sense of adventure, and our eye for natural beauty. Radio talk show host and author Dennis Prager on his Happiness Hour has talked quite a bit about the value in finding “kindred spirits.” He describes them as people that share the same values as you in life. He claims it’s kindred spirits that bring mental well-being and contribute greatly to happiness to our lives. I knew quite early on that Susan was a kindred spirit of mine. That was a way to describe our connection.

I ordered my breakfast of pancakes, eggs, and sausage, along with a coffee. Every once in a while, as Susan checked up on me, or had a moment, she stopped by the counter to tell me more about herself and feed my inquisitive nature. I thought she was born and raised in Nevada but learned she was originally from North Carolina and had spent most of her life out West in some of the states where only the strong and well-suited survive such as Alaska and Montana. She worked among hearty, productive, and laborious jobs in mining, lumbering, and construction, even helping with the building of the enormous Libby Dam in Montana! She worked secretarial jobs and drove haul trucks. She worked for the National Forest Service and seven years as deputy of a jail. As I learned the whereabouts and general overview of her life, she said something that in the moment both broke and resonated with my heart. On the topic of family, she said, “I got married forever. He just forgot to tell me he didn’t.”

I could see such strength but also sadness in her eyes. Although I never have been married, what Susan said resonated so deeply with me, in regard to relationships with others, largely in terms of friendship. I, by nature, tend to be a very private and reserved person in public, but when I befriend someone, it’s quite a meaningful thing for me. I only let people in my life, into my inner circle, that I plan to keep forever. My sense of loyalty is strong, and I can be quite particular as to whom I invest my own life in. Sadly many of whom I have considered friends have blown away with the wind, or I’ve been lost, forgotten, abandoned. It leaves a lasting ache upon my heart, and an ever haunting question of is it a fault within my own character that is the cause of this? 

We would not get deep into conversation, for Susan was working, and this was our first meeting in person. I would go on to meet up with her one summer a few years later in Montana. I was there working at Glacier National Park, and she had moved back to her old stomping grounds of Libby, Montana, so we met up for a meal. In the meantime we had shared more, sending messages back and forth online. She asked for prayer as she struggled with her vision and eye problems. I did the same as I became quite sick with ulcerative colitis. There was a simplicity to Susan’s life that seemed refreshing. She faced many hardships, but always found a way through with God’s grace. Susan also is quite portable, meaning she moves quite frequently and can make for herself a home and a place to rest her head in whatever situation life throws at her. There is always a way forward in every situation for Susan. I could sense in some regard that Susan was a lover of life but also a loner such as myself. She wrote to me about loneliness, about how both of her parents were deceased, how some of her remaining family had been mistreating her. In all this I believe Susan’s independent nature was forged even stronger. I too possessed that independent spirit. I too had learned to get by alone in life. Yes, it can build character, but it’s overall not a desired thing. It was simply a card we were both dealt, and we had both learned to adapt to it. 

C.S. Lewis in his book, The Four Loves, writes ​​“Friendship arises out of mere companionship where two or more of the companions discover that they have in common some insight or interest or even taste which the others do not share and which, till that moment, each believed to be his own unique treasure (or burden).” This resonates with me in the way I relate to Susan. Though so different, we are friends because we share common interests with our love for the outdoor recreation and god, yet we also share burdens, our solitude and our health struggles. Lewis explains how true friends, whether intended or not, find themselves on the other side of the barrier from the “herd,” for they have found common interests that distinguish themselves from the herd. So many people try to “fit in” and be like the rest in the herd, but by compromising their own unique individuality, these people miss out on finding true friendship. But being her true self, Susan found a friend in me. We may not see each other but for a few times, given the great physical distance between us, and our communication may be inconsistent at times, but I know she is a kindred spirit and friend, and in that there is comfort and blessing. 

Before I left the cafe, I told Susan of my great adventure plans and how my next big stops would be at the ghost town in Bodie State Historic Site and Lake Tahoe in California. Before we left I asked if we could take a picture together. We found someone to snap one for us. I was delighted and filled with joy for having met Susan, and I was so excited to tell my friend Zach, who would be joining me in a few days, about how I met the one and only Susan. I had once told him that she was my biggest fan!

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Theodore Roosevelt in Defense of Capitalism

All the extraordinary material development, our wonderful industrial growth will go for nothing unless with that growth goes hand in hand the moral, the spiritual growth that will enable us to use aright the other as an instrument.” – Theodore Roosevelt  

I am reading through Theodore Roosevelt’s “Realizable Ideals,” one of the works of Roosevelt which has been, by and large, lost in the crevices of history. It is a book first published in 1911, which regrettably in the present time is not receiving its due attention. 

I came upon this book by simply observing the bibliography of Roosevelt and being drawn to its title “Realizable Ideals,”- a combination of words that deserves themselves an unpacking, for “realizable ideals” are not the lofty utopian crafted ideals which are nowhere near practical nor possible, but they are achievable ones. Upon commencing this read, I was greeted with, and stopped to muse upon the words which I presented above in quotes. Here we have “material development” and “industrial growth” tied to “moral” and “spiritual growth.”

I paused to closely examine what Roosevelt was saying. I know Roosevelt is not Gospel, but he was a very wise man- an avid thinker and intellectual with strong moral character. His words are supported by much thought and study. So I wanted to examine how what he said relates to our world today and see if the statement above holds truth and relevance. Here he is saying that Material Development and Industrial Growth is useless without Moral and Spiritual Growth. Why? Well, he goes on to say that Material Development and Industrial Growth is merely an instrument used by Moral and Spiritual Growth? Objectively speaking, an instrument is useless if it is not employed. A piano does not produce music without a pianist, or I suppose could make quite the rattle if it was dropped or abused. A hammer has no pounding force without the manpower behind it. Being an instrument in and up itself is subservient to the instrumentalist. Moral and Spiritual Growth is the employer here of the subservient instrument of Material Development and Industrial Growth. This implies that Moral and Spiritual Growth is a more valuable, more commanding force than Material Development and Industrial Growth which ought to be subservient to these higher means of development. 

So in what ways are Material Development and Industrial Growth merely an instrument of Moral and Spiritual Growth? Well let’s examine the products of Material Development and Industrial Growth within a nation. It produces, in its most encompassing form, three things: material products, jobs, and national strength. In examining these more closely, the products are not reserved for the elite, but with industrial growth the products are made for the enjoyment of ordinary people. Jobs of this kind of growth can raise people out of poverty and give a certain sense of purpose within society. It produces wealth which leads to greater charity, funding of a strong military and infrastructure, if employed properly. One might argue that with such growth comes greed and exploitation. Why yes, that would be correct if Material Development and Industrial Growth is divorced from Moral and Spiritual Growth. This is what Roosevelt is saying: Material Development and Industrial Growth “will go for nothing,” separated from the later. 

In discussing Material Development and Industrial Growth of the United States we must examine the concept of capitalism, for it is the root economic model which has led to such growth. The competition it has produced has spurred on enormous and continual growth. Roosevelt believed in capitalism, but yet he also fought capitalists. He believed in the promise and the moral philosophy behind capitalism, that one is free to work as he chooses and keep what he earns; that competition and innovation gives way to growth. But he fought capitalists who did exploit others and destroyed natural wonders in greed. He took on monopolies that got out of hand from losing sight of Moral and Spiritual Growth.

In our nation today, there is a rising appeal of” democratic socialism,” a rebranded term that lies squarely up with Marxist Socialism. “Marxism” at one time in American society may have been seen as a dirty word, but now it is celebrated, particularly among those on the Left and its varying movements. Congresswoman Alexandria-Ocasio Cortez of New York explains the sentiment of many young so-called “progressives”:  “When we toss out these big words, capitalism, socialism, they get … sensationalized, and people translate them into meaning things that perhaps they don’t mean. So to me, capitalism, at its core, what we’re talking about when we talk about that is the absolute pursuit of profit at all human, environmental, and social cost.” I think Cortez, along with many Leftist progressives are taking capitalism and divorcing it from Moral and Spiritual Growth. They are only observing the ugly outcome of the divorce settlement. They aren’t considering that these two things should go together and when they do, they work!

Ken Langone, cofounder of the Home Depot, in his book, “I Love Capitalism” writes “Capitalism works. Let me say it again: It works!  And- I am living proof- it can work for anybody anywhere. Blacks and whites and browns and everyone in between. Absolutely anybody is entitled to dream big, and absolutely everybody should dream big. Show me where the silver spoon was in my mouth.” Unfortunately so many people think capitalism doesn’t work. That it only has corruption in its history. It has even been labeled as “irredeemable.” However, these people that attack the institution, I think, would, in the long run, be much more pleased finding reconciliation between Moral and Spiritual Growth and Material Development and Industrial Growth instead of a crusade to abolish capitalism.  

Ironically, it is many in this same crowd who have worked ardently to demean and deprioritize spirituality, attempting to separate God and religion from nearly all facets in the public eye. It is the same crowd which preaches that morality is subjective, that no moral absolutes exist. When a society cannot agree upon what is right or wrong, then it has no moral foundation on which anything substantial or good can be built. The higher standards for which we reach are unattainable. We are then only left with the opposite of what Roosevelt preaches: unrealizable ideals.

We must, as a people, reprioritize Moral and Spiritual Growth and understand, as Roosevelt did, that capitalism is an instrument of it. Although self-proclaimed a “progressive” in his day, who fought for fair wages, better working conditions, and reasonable regulation, Roosevelt did not bow to socialists nor would agree with the progressives of today. He writes in his autobiography, “These socialist are unalterably opposed to our whole industrial system. They believe that the payment of wages means everywhere and inevitably an exploitation of the laborer by the employer, and that this leads inevitably to a class war between the two groups, or, as they would say between the capitalists and the proletariat. They assert that this class war is already upon us and can only be ended when capitalism is entirely destroyed and all the machines, mills, mines, railroads, and other private property used in production are confiscated, expropriated or taken over by the workers.” Roosevelt was to the point and also writes, “I do disagree most emphatically with both the fundamental philosophy and proposed remedies of the Marxist Socialists.” Roosevelt could say this and stand firm on this position because he knew that capitalism was a good instrument of Moral and Spiritual Growth. No other instrument could be employed to produce such a prosperous and free nation. Historians Alan Greenspan, PhD, economic advisor of President Ford, and Adrian Wooldridge, in their book, “Capitalism in America: A History” brush on the success of the instrument of capitalism:

“American capitalism is also the world’s most democratic. The United States was the birthplace of the engines of popular capitalism, from mass production to franchising to mutual funds. In many countries capitalism has always been associated with a plutocratic elite. In America, it has been associated with openness and opportunity: making it possible for people who were born in obscurity to rise to the top of society and for ordinary people to enjoy goods and services that were once confined to the elites….America’s rise to greatness has been marred by numerous disgraces, prime among them the mistreatment of aboriginal people and the enslavement of millions of African Americas. Yet judged against the broad sweep of history, it has been a huge positive. America has not only provided its own citizens with a prosperous life. It has exported prosperity in the form of innovations and ideas. Without American’s interventions in the Second World War, Adolph Hitler might well have subdued Europe. Without America’s unwavering commitment to the Cold War, Joseph Stalin’s progeny might still be in power in Eastern Europe and perhaps much of Asia. Uncle Sam provided the arsenal of democracy that saved the twentieth century from ruin.” A prosperous economic model produced a strong nation with great lasting influence. 

So, let’s not be quick, as a people, to demonize capitalism. Let’s not look down upon Material Development and Industrial Growth. Instead let us put it in its place. Let us recognize the areas in which it has been corrupted and bring back the remedy which can restore this fine instrument: Moral and Spiritual Growth! We must not let them be separated! And it is among the fruits of such a union I believe Americans, from all walks, can find agreement. 

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Reference List

Fuchs, E. (2020, Feb 3) AOC: Capitalism is the absolute pursuit of profit at all costs. Yahoo! Finance.https://news.yahoo.com/aoc-capitalism-is-the-absolute-pursuit-of-profit-at-all-costs-145656395.html

Greenspan, A. Wooldridge, A. (2018) Capitalism in America: A history. Penguin Press

Langone, K. (2018) I Love Capitalism: An American story. Portfolio/Penguin

Roosevelt, T. (1911) Realizable Ideals. Books for Libraries Press

Roosevelt. T. (1913) An Autobiography. C. Scribner’s Sons
Zhao, C. (2019, March 10)  NY Rep Alexandria-Ocasio Cortez Says Capitalism is Irredeemable. Newsweek.https://www.newsweek.com/alexandria-ocasio-cortez-says-capitalism-irredeemable-1357720

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She Tried to Kill Me: Death Valley’s Claim on My Life

Hold on Josh. Hold on. You’ve got to, or you’re going to die. I could feel myself beginning to slip from consciousness. I was in a desert canyon in Death Valley National Park in southern California. It was 122 degrees outside this summer day without a single cloud in the sky. The sun beat down harshly. I was out for a hike, not a long one, just a few miles, but I was competing with nature. I thought it wasn’t going to be a challenging match, but Death Valley was winning. I began to experience lightheadedness. My hearing began to sound muffled. Then there was the dreaded fading of colors. Hold on. Don’t let yourself go. If I were to pass out, it would only be a matter of minutes before Death Valley would dry me out and bake me in its inferno. I was hiking uphill on jagged triangular rock and badland formations on the Badlands Loops Trail, trying to make it out of the canyon. Normally this would be easy, for I’m fit and capable, and this wasn’t even very steep, but here in the harshness of the desert, with the oppressive heat, my body was giving up. Am I dehydrated? Or am I lacking salt? Or is it heat stroke? The body could be overheated, no longer having the ability to cool down to a life sustaining temperature. Maybe my body just could not keep up with the extreme heat of Death Valley. 

My heart began to race rapidly. Oh no, I know how this goes. Soon it could beat out of control, bringing me to the ground. I’ve fainted before, at Big Bend National Park, but luckily I was inside around other people. Here I was completely alone, except for with her, Death Valley. We had met before. She caught me in a sand storm summers before. 

The Badlands Loop

There was a little bit of shade just up against the short canyon wall. There were fragments of broken rock down by my feet, which seemed, in my present state, so far away and unreachable, but there was one big enough for me to sit upon. I lowered myself slowly and cautiously. Any quick movements, any exertion whatsoever, could cause me to black out. I crossed my legs, the most comfortable position to keep myself up from complete collapse. My vision went blurry for a moment, but I still had a grasp on it. I focused on breathing slow, deep breaths.  

I had water, but I wasn’t sure if that’s what I needed. If I was salt deprived, this would worsen my symptoms. However, it could be life-saving as well. I took a sip of my water which had turned hot from the all-consuming heat. I poured the rest on my head. Although hot, it was not as hot as the air around me. It could cool me off just a bit. And if salt was what I needed, there was one thing I could do. Sweat contains salt. I began to lick my arms. It’s not that I was particularly sweaty, for one doesn’t sweat in Death Valley, as sweat immediately evaporates in the extremely dry climate. But even this being the case, there should still be leftover salt deposits on the skin, I thought.

I had overestimated my strength in the desert. It didn’t help that I did this hike shirtless. I like the feeling of the desert sun on my skin, and I thought that in the heat the less clothes the better, but actually if I had worn something to cover my torso it could have provided shade for the body and maybe I wouldn’t have overheated as quickly. 

I had not yet cried for help. I was only about a mile from Zabriskie Point, a popular lookout point, where people would be present, marveling over nature’s artistic display of giant jagged rock formations, but I was so far down in a canyon with a sea of rock formations before me that I could not hear any of them, and I don’t think they would hear me. If I were to exert my voice loudly, this might take too much energy and cause me to lose my consciousness. I could not make a phone call. My phone was in the car. I left it there, for there was no service out here anyway. It was just me and her, Death Valley. I’ve always said she is my favorite park. She is so different and unique from all the others. Her views are so astounding, Her mountains are so tall. Her valley is so wide. She is rich in history of gold, silver, and borax mining. She’s the keeper of abandoned mines and ghost towns. She’s so strong and so dramatic, and this was one of the many features I liked about her, but she was also ruthless. She lures people in with beauty and mystique, as in the past she tempted with her riches of gold and silver. She’s a masterful artist, skillful at manipulation, luring man in to choke and turn him back to the very sand from which formed him. 

She caught me. She had me right where she wanted me. Though a lover turned hostile, I had done her no wrong, but merciless she pursued me. I focused on breathing and said a prayer. After a few minutes my heart returned to a normal pace, colors in my vision returned, and my hearing was sharp. I was okay. I had to get up and continue. Time was of the essence. I needed to get back to the car. I stood up slowly, and I walked carefully. A peace had brushed over me, despite concern still guiding me. I was able to be calm yet knowing the urgency. I made progress, slowly, calmly, not letting my heart rate spike. 

The trail wound up and down and around wavey rocks and canyon walls, until I could see up ahead the sharp pointed rocks of Zambriski Point. I could see people on the rim taking pictures, and it was a sign of relief. Slowly and methodically, I made it back to the lookout point among the other tourists. They were nonchalantly posing for photos in front of the jagged points spiking up from the canyon. I then was assumed to be another one of them, but no one knew what I had just experienced. I got back to the car and turned the air conditioning on high. I had some hot gatorade, and dry snacks. They seemed to help. I longed for something cold and refreshing, but nothing here would be cold. It was all hot. 

Zambriski Point

I’m done with hikes for the day, I concluded. After resting in my car for a few minutes, I was ready to check out the Furnace Creek Inn, one of the two accommodations in Death Valley National Park. I wasn’t going to stay. I just wanted to see it. I had learned about this historic inn from a documentary about National Park lodges. It was built in 1927 by the Pacific Coast Borax Company before the area was declared a national monument and later a National Park. This inn was once a desert oasis for Hollywood elites, and to this day, it says on its website that it “still pampers every guest.” I had to see it for myself. 

Its a structure that very much fits in with the landscape. Its foundation and lower level walls are constructed with rocks from the very desert. It’s building blocks were formed from the very sand of Death Valley. After I parked my car I walked up the drive. On one side there was a lawn with a tall fountain. Yes, there was a lawn in Death Valley! I could scarcely believe my eyes. On the other side of me was a wall skillfully crafted out of rocks and above it a patio for guests. Up above was the main level of the establishment. To get there there was a rounded tunnel that cut through the rock wall and seemingly went back to a staircase. Lights were affixed in the tunnel to light the way. How unique of an entryway, I thought. It seemed sort of like I was approaching some passageway in a medieval castle, but as soon as I entered the tunnel, a large aggressive wasp darted towards my face. I abruptly moved my head, evading its assault. It buzzed around me loudly and invasively. I ran back out of the tunnel to the drive. I had thought I was alone, but then I saw a lady walking her way around the front of the inn. I must have looked ridiculous, running away erratically from a wasp. I immediately regained composure, stood upright, and walked moderately. I smiled and nodded my head politely. “Hello,” I said, as if nothing unusual had just happened. 

I walked around the rock wall to another staircase that led up to the main lobby of the inn. Inside I was quite impressed. I beheld a beautiful lobby of simple elegance. Intricate tilework spread through the lobby and into the halls. Big rounded windows looked out into palms and the desert mountains in the distance. Oritenal rugs sprawled out beneath wingback chairs and floor lamps. I did feel out of place, however, and began to wonder if this was alright, that I, a mere vagabond of the desert, was welcome in such an establishment. If I knew it was so nice, I would have dressed a bit differently from my gym shorts, cut-off, and hiking boots. But I decided to ignore my attire and just walk about the place as if I belonged. No one had to know I was a foolish young man who nearly died in the desert, who really is not sure where he is spending the night, and could no way afford this place. I could pretend and carry myself as if I knew exactly where I was and what I was doing. Some National Park lodges encourage visitors and are quite welcoming. This seemed just a little bit prestigious and more intimate to me, but I pretended like I belonged the best I could, given the circumstances. I wanted to appreciate its architecture, elegance, air conditioning….and pool?!

I walked out into the oasis garden behind the inn. I was so completely surprised that such a place existed in Death Valley. Here was a forest of palm trees on a hillside blanketed in green grass. Small winding stone pathways and stairs meandered around it and over a bubbling brook and rippling pond. Little stone walls held up the hillsides of tasteful landscaping. This place looked so cared for and so astounding to exist in such a barren place as Death Valley. Between the palms, in the distance, I could see the large expanse of the desert and its mountains standing tall. What a contrast! More immediately before me I was faced with a large natural spring fed swimming pool. Its poolside was encased by beautiful stone architecture with arches resting on cornerstones, and it was all in the shade. After being so exhausted in the desert, and strolling now still in the oppressive heat, the thought of being engulfed beneath the water of a swimming pool seemed so perfect and just what I most wanted. I had been successful thus far in pretending as if I belonged at the inn, walking around the lobby and garden oasis. What if I just took it one step further and helped myself to a little swim? I was very close to letting myself walk through the gate and into the pool, but I first noted that it would be quite obvious if anyone was watching, for no one else was at the pool. Then my moral conscience kicked in. This was not for me. It was desirable. It would be so nice, but it was not mine. 

the garden oasis

Back at my car I noted cell service here by the inn and sent a text to my mom telling her about the 122 degree temperature. She responded “You are not going to camp in that!” She knew that was my plan, and it still was my plan. 

I drove thirty minutes to the Stovepipe Wells Village. I remembered the general store here from my previous visit. I bought a Death Valley Black Cherry soda in a long-neck glass bottle here back on my first National Park adventure. Inside I was greeted by a self-serve soda fountain. I got myself the mega jumbo cup, nearly filled it with small nuggets of ice from the dispenser, then poured over it cold refreshing blue Powerade. When I left the store and took the first sip through the straw, it was the most heavenly experience. My body was crying for this so badly: the sugar, the sodium, the electrolytes, and most welcome of all, the cold. I couldn’t take it in fast enough. I may not have made it into the pool at Furnace Creek, but this ice-filled cup of Powerade drowning me was the most perfect thing at the moment. Death Valley had tried to take me, I survived, still weary and war torn, but now I’d just powered up. It was going to be a good night. 

Next order of business: finding a site and setting up camp. There were a number of first-come -first-serve campgrounds in Death Valley. In accordance with my itinerary, I was on my way to the Emigrant Campground when I discovered, along the way, a large sandy lot where others had parked and pitched tents. It sat a little bit elevated on a plain that sloped down into the valley. It displayed a beautiful open expansive view. The sun was setting, and I preferred not to set up camp in the dark. I figured this area would be fine. There were no numbered sites, no bathroom, but I could do without. I pitched my tent, and then went for a walk. 

I passed by a ranger station or some park service building in the middle of the road that looked closed for the summer. Just past it I paused. I deviated from the road and stood up upon a rock looking out. The sun had set. The mountains were a rich dark blue, and the sky a vibrant pink. This beauty was enough to give shiver with goosebumps, even in the extreme heat. Out in the valley there appeared to be a lake, but I knew it was just the giant salt flats contrasting the surroundings. Everything was so giant, so huge- the mountains, the expanse of the valley, the salt flats. Everything seemed to flow smoothly from the Artist’s brush. Even with such an incredibly huge view, the desert was so still, calm, and quiet. This confirmed all the more that Death Valley remained my favorite National Park. She has a unique overwhelming effect on my soul. I love her, despite the fact she tried to kill me. 

With a calmness of the late evening desert seeping through my being, I walked slowly and relaxed back to my tent and shed a few tears in response to such beauty. This was also my first stop of my very first grand National Park adventure back in 2015. I was coming back to where it all started, my following in love with the Parks, where excitement and wonder was so fresh and new. The desert reminded me of all I had seen and experienced since, and I felt extremely grateful. 

Back at my car I brushed my teeth and didn’t bother changing clothes for the night. It would all be coming off in this heat. I checked the temperature from the car before I locked it up for the night. It displayed an even 100 degrees. I noticed I had cell service and decided to respond to my mom’s text over her concern about me camping in the heat when I told her it was 122 degrees earlier. I responded “No worries. It has cooled off…it’s only 100 degrees now.”

I crawled into my tent. Death Valley had spared me and now was as beautiful and captivating as ever.

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